Serena will always be loved by her friends around her. Hihihi.

This picture indicates a happy friendship that all of them are in.
And if i am applying my friendship with my girls into this picture here,
I AM SO SERENA IN THERE.
hehe. (n_n)

My bestfriends told me to stop posting my scary pieces of notes, poems, and writings interpreting how emotionally distracted-ly i am right now.
I cant help but laugh.
Jangan risau la kawan kawan.
It is not the end of the world yet.


Ive been staying home alone for the last few days since my parents and the cutie little sister went for a course organized by my dad in PD.
They had to be away for few days, almost a week.
And i have no choice but to stay home since i'll be attending the Great Serdang Debating Championship tomorrow.
If i follow my parents, then i'll not be able to go for that event.
And with that, i have to sacrifice and say goodbye to beautiful sunset view at the beach.
Argh.


Thanks manymany to my girls for accompanying.
And thanks for those who cursed people who hurt me on behalf of me,
because i dont have the guts to do so,
and Iz, haha you're so good at it. Congratulations for ur engagement with Olan.


As for you Kak Aza, u know when it comes to you I always fail to come out with any words to describe my gratitude,
So thanks. u know it means a lot more than just a five-letter-word there.
I Love You sister. ♥


Safena, yeah i know you're busy dealing with things happening to your mum,
and i cant deny that all of us here admired you for that, kau sangat kuat untuk harungi semua dan tak pernah rebah.
And you know thats the same reason why i have your number on the speed dial.
He he. thankiyu Mrs. Budi! Emuahh muaahh!! Ehe.


Ammar, i loveeeeeeeee that stupid conversation we had and oh yes it's been longg since i last talked to anyone on the phone as soon as i got up from bed,
tak mandi lagi kot. Haha.
And yes you know you are right that everything happened because of my same mistake that have been repetitiously done.
I think it happened all the time kan Ammar?
Yeww. I hate myself for that. +___+


Others, u know who u are,
Mia Mumu Black Bearbear Nina Aimi Ari Berry and whole bunch of people cheering me up,
i dnt knw what else should i say,
but thanks and i'll be okay and get back on track memandangkan esok Great Serdang Debating Championship will start,
a professional debater dont think of personal matters in the middle of a tournie,
right?
so thats what i'm going to do then.

Terima Kasih semua.

To my friends;

Some people come into our lives and quickly go.
Some stay for awhile and leave footprints on our hearts.
And we are never, ever the same.

And that, is the main thing that differs friends and bestfriends with lovers who came passing by and walks away once they've hit the jackpot.

Lucky they haven't hit any of my jackpots yet. Phew~

Dia dan dia dan lain lain yang menunggu.

Ada beberapa waktu aku biarkan yang menunggu terus menunggu,
Aku buat tidak endah dengan misi;
aku tidak mahu lagi dia dan dia dan dia yang lain lain di barisan itu terus menunggu,
kerap kali aku ungkap untuk mereka pergi dan tolonglah berlalu.
Tapi malang, mereka tidak pernah mendengar pujukan aku.
Dan di barisan itu tabah mereka menunggu.


Ada beberapa waktu aku buat tidak nampak,
Tidak sedar akan barisan yang ada itu.
Terlalu kecil mereka aku banding kan dengan diri aku.
Tidak pernah langsung teringin aku menyapa,
Dan aku sekadar membiarkan dia dan dia dan dia yang lain lain di barisan itu hampa.
Di barisan itu kaku mereka tunggu.


Ada banyak waktu aku terkejar yang tidak termampu.
Rebah nya aku gagah pula untuk bangun berlari kembali.
Tabah sungguh dan cukup berani.
Semata aku mengusahakan kejar apa yang dicari.
Yang berbaris itu tak pula aku ingini.
Dan aku terlupa akan dia dan dia dan dia dan lain lain di barisan itu.
Berbaris setia mereka menunggu.


Masih juga ada sepanjang waktu selepas itu,
Bilamana aku putus asa dan tersembam kekecewaan,
Tangan tangan itulah yang mencapai aku yang jatuh jauh di dalaman,
Jari jari halus itulah yang mengesat mutiara yang berlinangan,
Dan dakapan suam itu semua lah yang memberi aku ketenangan.


Namun cukup hina aku untuk tidak menghargai mereka,
Lepas satu persatu pujukan aku kembali mencuba,
Dan bila aku melambai pergi meneruskan jalanan percubaan itu semula,
Aku kembali lupa akan dia dan dia dan dia dan lain lain yang masih bersimpuh menanti aku dalam barisan.


Dan sulaman masa berlalu, barisan itu tanpa aku sedar semakin kaku.
Dan sepantas gerakan jarum halus kiraan waktu, barisan itu semakin waktu semakin buntu.
Dan kali ini tidak perlahan dan tidak menahan,
barisan itu semakin hilang kiraan tepat ahli yang menunggu.


Kerana melangkah pergi nya satu persatu.
Satu satu satu persatu. . . . .


Masih, aku yang tidak sedarkan diri dan tidak pernah mengenang budi ini,
Kembali merangkak bila pulang dari jalanan percubaan yang gagal lagi kesekian kali,
Meraih satu persatu masa dan waktu mereka yang ku sangka masih menunggu.


Dan sukar pula aku terima sudah hilang barisan itu
dan dia dan dia dan dia dan lain lain dalam barisan itu.
Sudah ghaib semuanya.
Pergi mereka tidak bernisan tidak bertanda.
Susah amat untuk aku percaya.


Mana pergi nya tangan yang manggapai aku,
Mana pergi jari yang mengesat dan pelukan yang menidurkan aku tanpa tangisan.

Dan seketika ada sinis suara kecil menyapa;

Oh, farah.
Mereka telah pergi kerana terlalu lama mereka dibiarkan menunggu.
Menunggu farah sehingga hati parah.
Menunggu farah dengan harapan mengikat hati dan semuanya mereka sedia serah.
Tapi yang kau berikan mereka hanya luka dan barah.
Dan mereka semua berlalu dengan pasrah.


Masih kah mahu teruskan jalanan percubaan itu?
Tidak. Ada rupanya satu dan dua dan beberapa yang berbaki,
Menunggu setia di barisan ini,
Dan aku akhirnya terbuka hati.
Biar pergi pada yang sudah lama disini,
Daripada dicari dan tunggu yang tak pernah pasti.

Kerana akhirnya celik aku dari pejam yang lama itu.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
hukum lah aku dengan balasan balasan Mu,
beri lah aku pengajaran dalam cara paling keras sekalipun,
dan cabut lah nyawa aku kalau sudah sampai masanya untuk aku pergi.


Terlalu lemah dan tak ada daya nya aku
melawan takdir dan segala ketentuan Mu.
Ampun kan aku untuk semua dosa dosa dan silap lepas
serta segala khilaf dan pincang juga lancang.


Guide me to the right path.
I know i am finally heading to the right path now,
so let me stay through the way,
PLEASE.

Now show me some effort, will you..?

That’s why, in life, we can never put our expectations too high. But at the same time it doesn’t mean that we should never have expectations and be hopeless too.
We must have a little bit faith and hope, and put the least expectation into something that we believe might happen, if we really want it to happen.


Well the thing about fate is, it is true that it has all been arranged by the Almighty,
It has all been coded, plotted, coordinated nicely when and where and how things are going to happen to whom and for what reason it is going to be.


But in Islam itself, it is stated that we have, we must put our best effort to earn something, and not just rely on fate and all that have been destined for us in the future.
And that is why there are sayings such as;

“no pain no gain”

“usaha tangga kejayaan”

And the best among all,

“hendak seribu daya…”

the rest, sambung urself…

If we really wanted something so bad,
We know we can’t get the same thing at the same value and same standards anytime anywhere else,
That there’s no way we can find any better quality of that particular ‘thing’, and for the fact that we know that good things doesn’t stay put and it will vanished one day if we don’t grab the chance to have it, we should at least try our best to get it.
We should at least try our best for at least to appreciate it.
For at least, to appreciate it, highlighted, as good things doesn’t happen to everyone and not everyone have the chance to have it.
(even if it doesn’t lasts)


You know, maybe I should try being hopeless too.
Or maybe, since u are so good at it, u should teach me how to.


Thanks. Many many thanks.
-FD-

For the love of the family. ♥

Satu tahun akan datang dalam keluarga Farah;

Dalam satu tahun akan ada seorang yang bakal graduasi.
Satu tahun akan ada satu lagi ahli bertambah dalam keluarga.
Satu tahun lagi rumah bertambah besar.
Satu tahun lagi ada ahli keluarga yang mungkin pergi.
Satu tahun lagi banyak percakaran yang boleh jadi.
Satu tahun lagi mungkin ada yang rebah sakit.
Satu tahun lagi banyak lah kejayaan mendatang.
Satu tahun lagi bergendonglah bersama memapah yang susah.
Satu tahun lagi masih mahukah berkongsi cerita.
Satu tahun lagi ibu ibu dan saudara mara mengesat airmata bersama.
Satu tahun lagi perlu bahagikan untung rugi sama rata.
Satu tahun lagi mungkin kah kita bertambah bahagia?

Hai ahli keluarga,
Satu tahun yang singkat macam macam boleh terjadi.
Tahun akan datang,
Jatuh bangun menangis dan ketawa, adakah masih akan dikongsi semua?


Family members,
i really really really cant wait for tonight's BBQ gathering.
Been missing all of you.
Masa untuk menutup kembali semua luka dan semaikan baru benih kasih dan cinta.
Malam ini yang jauh dan dekat berkumpul kita semua.
I can never be any happier! ♥ ♥ ♥

"In family life, love is the oil that eases friction,
the cement that binds closer together,
and the music that brings harmony."

Keluarga adalah tunjang rasa cinta.
Sebab itu, cinta keluarga adalah segalanya pada Farah.
Much love. Spreads the love to your family members now. XoXo.

Now i believe that good business came from the parents' blessings. Alhamdulillah for that. ♥

Went to Farah Agro Farm yesterday

for some injections to the babies

and some photo-session with those dearly beloved there.

Captured lots of wonderful snapshots and had real fun dealing with extraordinary easy customer who bought 10 of our African Boer's at once.

TEN at once, imagine that. hehe.

so yesterday was a beri beri goooody GOOD business day for me!

iyeayy! ;)

♥ ♥ ♥

to begin..

(gambar tuan biar kecik, segan nak besar2 hehe)

muka tuan F.A.F saying;

"hi welcome to Farah Agro Farm bla bla bla..."

went all excited after the the sales. hihi.

now look at these three stooges. hehe.

pushing one another as they looked at abah's Nikon.

meet AURORA,

my prettiest darling.

and and yeahh i trained her on flaunting her pinkish complexion too,

look, she's pouting here! :p

and here comes the QUEEN..

the scariest of all.. behind that beauty..

haha blame abah for painting her tanduk RED. now she already look like a witch. A kambing witch. haha.

cutie ricky!

Ricky Martin. ehe.

Looks familiar, aint it?
Yeahh these are those that they normally uses for those Metal sembah hantu slaughter minum darah segala.
Okay no,
this is the Pharrell's, they normally slaughter this type of kambing for events like Qurban Aidil Adha, Aqiqah dsb.
The Most Wanted for now, musim Aidil Adha.







fo some reasons, we put on lenses, oyeah colored lenses on our babies,
macam yang ni ha, warne hijau lagi.
aww.



tak la, memang mata dia natural macamni,
boleh panggil National Geographic punye crew datang ni!
:p




and again, as to put the perfect ending to this wonderful-kambing entry,
the estatic face of tuan kambing.
HAHA gambar besar pulak.




Alhamdulilah,

for the good business and happiness brought in by the satisfied customers.

I thank my family the most for being very supportive and for those who have faith in me on handling such a huge challenging business like this.

Till then, take care every one and Selamat Hari Raya aidil Adha in advance!

♥ ♥ ♥

French braids aren't just for french maids. ;)

Braids, french braids is a totally applicable and simple style to be put on especially for those having bad hair days, and have NO feelings on putting scarfs either.


Ever since i saw one on Serena Van Der Woodsen on the 3rd season of GossipGirl recently,
i became more obsessed with it.


Unfortunately, not everyone can put on this look, and it is best for those thick-haired and with non-layered hair styling. Kalau rambut layered-cut macam aku ni bila buat selalu tak kemas.


here are some of the gorgeous looks of french braids and the typical braids-look.
Happy trying!

*will go to nenek's place and ask her to tie me one. she's soo good at it and mama pulak tak reti buat braids. nanti i will post the result. (if, and only if rupa aku lawa time tu HAHAHA)

and, and this one.. is a total killer.
used to have the interest on trying it.

tapi lepas aku tengok Fasha sendat buat macamni,
the interest terus vanished..!
macamtu sekali punya menyampah. hee hee.

Till then.. Byebye!
♥ ♥ ♥

i am a young entrepreneur. and proud of it. ♥

Alhamdulillah atas kepercayaan dan moral support yang diberikan ahli keluarga semua.
Semoga bisnes Faradiba ini akan mencapai kejayaan..!


Untuk sebarang tempahan bagi kambing pelbagai gred dan baka
(mainly German and African BOER),
sila hubungi saya, Faradiba Anuar di farahagrofarm@hotmail.com











nantikan kemunculan Faradiba Anuar dalam rancangan Agrotek di TV1.

I am gonna break the record and be the first to appear as the young entrepreneur holding Farah Agro Farm.
insyaAllah~

Told ya, i don't date younger guys, apa susah sangat kau nak paham?

NO NO.
A BIG NO NO.
this, is something i will never ever never never do in my life.
RIGID.

Logged in to my facebook account.
1 message inbox.
LOL, went all flattered thinking of dedi making me surprise again,
as he used to leaves me messages thru the facebook inbox..
shocked and stunned seeing the name of the sender.
even more shocker and feels like throwing up reading the whole message..


Here's the thing, i think it is time for me to say this,
say this out loud, make a declaration statement that i am so against it,
that i have a very strong and rigid policies,
and one of the policies is that I DONT DATE YOUNGER GUYs.!


Which part of the word/statement that is sooo hard for you to undrstand, oh for Godness sake please!


I might not have a boyfriend now or keep on being accused of having one-time-too-many-guy-friends as in friends=friends,
but that doesn't imply that i am so in need of any.!
Mind you, i can still sit, sleep, eat, read, move, laugh, talk, sneeze like a normal person without a boyfie. even if im gonna have one, soon.


But that person, is NEVER GONNA BE ANY ONE OF YOU MY JUNIORS.
Damn it, am i that seductive that you guys always misinterpret my strictness and rigidity as something that makes all of you turned on?
Makes all of you wants it more?
Crave for a deeper conversation?
Wey geli lah adik adik tolong la.
Please, dont make me go harsh, harsher than the way i've been before.


I am your senior.
I am wayy older.
Do not ever try to mention about Cinta Tak Mengenali Usia.
Cinta Itu Buta dan eh jangan jadi bodoh, dont talk about cinta to me, count your age 1st.


I AM NOT INTO JUNIORS.
I DONT DO JUNIORS.
and that is one the strict-est rule in the list of my policies.
mind you, i have my own.
there's a lot more in it.
and you never wanna know, trust me.


So adik adik, jangan bagi AKAK geli kat sini.
go main jauh jauh. STOP ANNOYING ME.

26th November.. count FD count...

Date have been set!
Date; as in the "DATING"-date.
he he he.

Cant wait to see you again, baby edward!
Cant wait to see you on the sequel..bloody nyummy nyummy.
I even named one of my baby kambeng after you.
See, how deep is my love. aww.
♥ ♥ ♥

Till we meet again, take care && Goodbye. ♥ ♥ ♥

Saying goodbye and being away from the dearest beloved isn't one of those things i'm good at. I might have masters degree in deleting people, but not to those i loved so much. Friends. Family. Special Ones.


I Hate Hate Hate super hate farewells and goodbyes. I hate seeing people walking away in front of me and disappear after a while.


I Hate tying so hard building up beautiful relationships again and again, because as farewells happens constantly, new faces will come, and eventually will go as well, as predicted..
and i am not a person who enjoy that kind of situation.


I Hate having no idea of where should i take myself away when in need of good, good, very good inspirational talk to boost the mood, and the moments i craves for hugs and demands for full attention. and desiring for affection...i just Hate it whenever i am lost with no direction in those situations.


And now that my friends are gone..
I seriously don't wanna come back here next semester.
I seriously dont. because i know that it is never going to be easy for me to wake up without them every morning, and go to bed without hearing them say goodnight.

Oh dear girlfriends. i love you girls too much. too deep that it leaves such a huge hole in my heart, unable to stay close to all of you any more.

Not being under the same roof with all of you pretty ladies.

Oh.. what am i without you..? all of you. What's gonna happen next..?

Goodbye my 4th semester.
Goodbye my 2nd year. Will finally be a final year student next semester, just one more year to go, but extremely upset about being separated from closest friends and away from them.


Shit. i knew it. I totally suck at saying goodbye. See, even this goodbye entry stinks. . . Bye bye.

to hijab, or not...

it's my choice.
it was never yours.
or even anyone-else's.

so why question..?

Confession : How exam week and tensing last-minute-studies changed me to a Morning person now. --.--"

And yes, referring to the title of the post this time,
i am officially a morning person now! Like, FINALLY.
U see, how exam week really changed me to a better person, *sobss*.
aku sampai tak tido, mata bukan pangkat Panda lagi, ini lebih dari sekadar Panda. Dah jadi Koala maybe. Super ugly dark circles dan pergi exam hall pakai eyeliner tebal tebal kasi cover.
ahhaha kalau ikut hati nak je pegi buat exam pakai shades, patu time nak jawab baru bukak sades letak tepi.

Eh, tak boleh eh?
:B


I am currently not feeling well, ini semua gara gara clearance hostel malam tadi,
i woke up this morning unable to breathe well. U see, i think it is time for me to start relying on the inhaler again, which i really really dont like, which is the reason why i refused to take it around or put it in my handbgags whenever going out and yes, malam tadi masa dah sesak sesak nafas sebab kemas bilik segala, baru menyesal KENAPA TAK BAWAK INHALER PEGI UITM.


Kalau mati sesak nafas last night buat malu aje mati sebab kemas bilik.
HE HE HE.
Its not that our room is 'THAT' messy, but kesungguhan roomate roomate aku ni adoyai,
i cant help but joined them cleaning up like ALL OUT weh seriously.
I've been here for like, what, 1 year? 2 years? Oyeah its two years of diploma studies here and i've never done anything-any-clearance-thing like what we did lastnight.
TOTALLY NAK PENGSAN.
(@_@)


Well lets talk about all the papers i've seated;

Human Resources Mgmt - i could have done better, if and if only i rweally rweaallly have read the few chapters betul betul fokus. Like, okay admit it aku baca tak habis kot sebab banyak gila chapters nak kena cover MEMANG NAK BACA SEMUA TU TAK AHH.


Malaysian Legal System - the 1st time sitting for LAW paper was like.... OKAY TAK CUKUP MASA. pastu cases untuk defamation aku pegi tulis kat essay for negligence how sweeeetttt is that?!
okay dahla bahagian A tak sempat jawab functions of law, gile ke ape soalan simple macamtu tak sempat jawab mahu nye tak meroyan balik bilik.


Accounting II - This was the moment I SWITCHED OFF THE LAPTOP (fo real babeh, fo real i'm tellin yah), tak tidur malam makan tak kenyang mandi pun malas thanks to accounting. and yesss, mari berdoa takkan repeat. Aku dah nekad takmahu tengok numbers and work with calculators lagi next sem. *determined*


Business Statistics - Gila tak kalau habis je akaun on the 9th, i only have like, TWO DAYS to be exact untuk study and prepare myself for statistics. And hell yeah baru habis satu calculation paper then along came another one... u see, for some reasons, i really think that the people behind all these buat-jadual-exam thingy untuk uitm ni, kinda kejam.
CUBALAH BAGI GAP LAMA SIKIT DO.


and yes the last paper will be Office Management, on this coming 15th.
And thats why aku berani on balik laptop dan online facebooking youtubing dan downloading googling sebagainye.


And yes today i shall start the readings and besok dah bulih buat pastyears semula. semangat FD semangat!


entah macam mana ghupe result kali ni.
Penat gile plus banyak urusan tambahan,
plus faktor faktor luaran yang menekan nekan jiwa ini. argh.
Memang tak merasa laa Dean's List sem ni. TOLONG TERIMA LA KENYATAAN TU FD.
*asap asap


The trip to Pangkor have been cancelled for some reasons and yes me and my girls could have never been any more sad than the moment we were informed about the cancellation..
Tapi tak mengapa. kita balik KL terus lah ye, abah dan mama akan sampai on the 15th itself, and i'll be in KL by the 16th.
Hoping to have a goooooood holidays this time, (minus all the debate tournies).


This holiday, there'll be TWO debate tournament to be attended.
One in UPM Serdang, which is the Great Serdang Debating Championship,
and another one is in UiTM Kampus Bandar Melaka, which is the Vice Chancellor's Cup.
YESS THIS TIME MELAKA WILL BE THE HOST,
kalau tak best siap kau Noel.


And yes disebabkan itu juga it means no-two-months-full holidays for me, sebab on the 4th of
december dah berangkat dan hanye akan pulang semula di KL setelah VC cup selesai iaitu pada 16th of december.
Oh yea disebabkan menjadi PM untuk Minggu Mesra Siswa intake december ni,
(HAHAAHA SIAP LA JUNIORS and FRESHIES)..
i will probably have to get my ass back to kedah awal dua minggu, meaning....
OKAY BAIK AKU STAY TERUS LEPAS 15 HB TERUS BALIK KEDAH kan,
okay sekarang hidup dah macam berkhidmat untuk UiTM.
Sila rasa meluat.


haha cepatlah habis Diploma.
Tak sabar nak buat TeSL.
yang takde calculation, yang takde LAW, yang takde ah semua yang susah susah tu.
Dan yeaa... yang pasti TeSL begitu menarek kerana akan ada baaanyaaaakkk presentations.
NOW THAT's THE REAL COURSE MADE FOR YOU, FD ANUAR.


Alrite people, the bell sudah ringing.
Masa untuk kembali ke pangkuan buku buku buku BUKU BUKU BUKU ohhhhh..

Ciao darlings! Much love, XoXo. ♥ ♥

wonder wonder.

you know there's something about that person
when u finally can make yourself sit down and wait patiently
eventhough you hate waiting.. and you hate waiting.. and you just don't like it..

-BUT YOU DID FOR THIS ONE TIME-

Tak keruan. Ee geli gila tajuk entri.

Paper law petang tadi tak menyeronokkan saya.
Lalu saya balik ke bilik dengan pimple seketul kat dahi sebab tak tidur dua malam dengan muka yang hampeh.


Dan Olan memberikan ini kepada saya.
Oh terima kasih Olan.
I really really appreciate it.
Rasa macam nak buat letak depan pintu je sah sah orang tak berani curi kasut kat rak nanti.




Gambar number lima memang horror sampai aku sendiri tak sanggup tengok.
Haha nasib baik ini study of lighting je.




Dah macam gambar arwah.
Allahyarhamah. eh eh.


Sekarang hidup tak sunyi kerana borang borang kuning ni menjadi peneman sejati.
Borang kuning. oh oh oh banyaknye.
Pening saya jadinye.





Bayangkan betapa banyak proposal harus dihandle sendiri.
Nasib baik ada adviser yang memahami.
Dan sokongan sokongan pihak dalaman aehem aehem.**

Dan nasib baik kurang gangguan orang yang tak paham bahasa.



Oh ye.
Hadiah istimewa yang diterima.




Jangan sekadar berjanji.
Janji kalau dimungkiri dia makan diri nanti.
Okay FD?
^_^


Dan gambar terbaru memakai hijab.
Haha abah dah bising pasal hijab ni.
Aku da lemas lemas lemas lemassssssssssssssssss.
Zasssssss.


SEKIAN UPDATE VERSI TAK KERUAN.
Bye. ♥

Okay okay it's time to reveal your wishlist!

Can i have these for my 20th birthday..?

1. A super sexxayy boyfriend..?

2. Beat Megan Fox down and replace her?


Wokey wokey skip those angan2.
What i really really want,
fo' real..


3. This awesome oldschool boots.
Okay this is the time when i'd approve anyone in this world approaching me as long as you have this for me.

(@_@)



I WANT THIS.
FOR REAL AND FOR SURE AND I WILL PUT IT ON EVEN JUST GOING TO CLASS IN UiTM MERBOK.

SERIOUSLY.

Happy 20th, Faradiba Anuar! Now you can try to compete with Megan Fox. Or Serena VDW. Or Blair. Hehe. ♥

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
Dude I'm turning 20 y.o today can u imagine that??
Its a number '2' there infront of my age now.
damnit, makin tua aku rupanya.


Few days back i was crying in pain discovering that my Wisdom Teeth 'Gigi Bongsu' has finally came out. Have all of you got yours? How was it? Painful, kan?
And i go googled and wiki-ed about it, haha aku mmg tak boleh hidup tanpa Google kan.
It says that once a person have got her/his Wisdom Teeth, that person is considered as reaching her/his final height, and it is a sign of maturity, which means aku dah dewasa sekarang. wakaka.


What-a-coincidence, today, 29th of October 2009, i finally reached my age of 20. No more teen-age and now the number have suddenly transformed to another scary looking and doesnt-sound-nice to mention=number TWO.
Haha okay okay face it goodbye teenage life and welcome to the new start.


I was so flattered to see numbers of wishes from my lovely friends and beloved family members sebelum 12 midnite lagi haha so kiut everyone was eager about wishing me eh? PERASAN.
And to answer if i got pranked by any ways lastnight? Hehehehe you know.. UiTM girlfriends and their surprises..
Ade la.
(+_+)


But then everyone have been sooo sweet to remember my Birthday and to wish me as soon as the clock strikes 12 and oh ya! ammar the BFF mestila the 1st kan. Pastu menggelabah sebab incoming calls banyak. Wakaka setahun sekali je rasa hot macamni, kan best kalau setahun birthday ada dua kali sambut.
Haha tamak kan.


So as i turned 20 today, i've made my wish lastnight, prayed to God for success and end-less happiness. Amin~
And FEW OTHER wishes. hehe.


So, SELAMAT TINGGAL dunia remaja!
SELAMAT DATANG alam kedewasaan!
Semoga hari hari mendatang dipenuhi kegembiraan dan gelak ketawa!
♥ ♥ ♥


Abah, jangan lupa tau Esprit wristlet tu.
Mama pun same jangan buat buat lupa hehe. U 've promised me to bake the best nyummiest prettiest Cheese Cake nanti kan. Weeee sayang semua!


Happy 20th Birthday Farah Adibah Anuar.
Do not worry so much about getting old. Nenek says that you'll get prettier at your 20's.

Teeeheeehehe. Bye! ;)

'Emotional Attach' dan Cara Membuangnya..

"..That's emotional attach. Tu la part yang paling susah nak buang. Like people says, time heals tapi tak tahu berapa lama. Ada cara;

Take a paper, imagine that its HIM. Crumple it. Buangkan ke lantai harshly. Then pijak pijak kan. Pastu throw it away out of the window. I know it sounds harsh but u'll feel a bit better.."

And yesterday I did exactly like my friend told me to do so.
Macam kat atas tu.
He's right. It feels a bit better.
Tapi, sampai berapa banyak piles of papers aku nak crumple
dan buang macamtu untuk aku buang emotional attach tu..?

Penat.

My first experience of an over-night trip was at the age of 20 y.o, on the 2nd year of Diploma. Alamak aii sedih gila.

And so...
Finally.. FD break the record..! {*-*}
Semalam was my very 1st time going out overnight and does not come back to sleep at the college. And last night was totally unplanned, crazy, so not FD.
We went for movie marathon, a total random car-racing dekat highway Penang idontknow whats the exact name haha who cares, and oyeah finally fell asleep with the 'bodyguards' claiming how 'you look like Adriana Lima while asleep' hahaha MALU LA MALU! :p



It was so random that yesterday i texted the best-flirt-friend about the degree of boredom im suffering in Kolej Mahsuri doing no other than goddamn boring facebooking activity, LAME.
And to my surprise, he came out with the idea of jon keluar kiterang bawak you pegi jalan and yes, YES to make it even more happening, Haikal followed us and oyeah we managed to convinced Eka, (Zalick) sister to Haikal, to follow us. After all i would be so trapped up boring as hell spending the days with two crazily annoying guys.
Eka and Hannah, you saved my day. Akak's day. ehe.



And then, there was this unexpected moment when i called Nia to join us, knowing that she stayed just around the corner, nearby Sunway Perda (Penang) and SHE CAME TO SEE US!! Gile happy. Terus takjadi beli oxford pumps dekat Nose sebab Nia datang peluk dari belakang ahawww gile suwit Nia! (*_*)



Went for movie, watched Pandorum-hilang suara bai tengok cite ni, tejerit jerit sakan.
And oh my, it took us an hour before we could really understand the movie, macam, bila dah lepas sejam baru aku pandang Hana dengan Haikal, 'Oh cerita ni dalam spaceship rupanye?!'
aha blurr. Menyesal tak tengok MeatBalls.



Later we went straightly to Nia's house, where it took us almost an hour to look for her house okay, gile tak. Sekali jumpe memang betul betul belakang Carrefour, exactly landmark that she gave us. Maybe if you keep ur mouth shut and takbanyak mengomel malam tadi kan haikal, we could have saved Muaz's gas frm touring around Jalan Kurau 1 Jalan Kurau 2 Persimpangan Gurun Emas Merah Cempaka Sari Jelutong okay melampau pelik nama kawasan perumahan.
Adoi la.



We never really planned for an over-night at Penang, especially without bringing along the facial cleanser, bekas contact lens, towels, and stuffs,(gila gedik bunyi do) but then since it's already 9.30pm and thinking that it is impossible for any of us to drive that fast to reach UiTM before the clock strikes 10, or 10.30 pm at least, so we accepted Nia's offer to stay and spend the night at her place. AND MEMANG WE MADE THE RIGHT DECISION.



Just to make it short, we watched Jennifer's Body ahahaha tak keluar lagi kat Malaysia tapi aku da tengok kau orang jangan bengang gitu. Lying next to Eka (Zalick) bising sibuk rephrasing 'Gile ah Megan Fox is so pretty', dan 'weh cantik gile dia ni weh' and so much more similiar to those, we couldnt help but laughed all the way, sebab cerita baru nak start, baru tunjuk Megan's lucious lips when she put on her lipgloss, Eka went crazy already. BARU LIPS je kot.
Btw the movie is awesome, I would still go out and watch it at the cinema when it's out soon, even dah tengok advance kat Home Theater Nia. CEH BERLAGAK GILA.



The best part was when eka complained lapar and sebab akak gorjes sangat concern maka dia paksa the bootyguards bodyguards to drive us for a takeaway, but then Nia came out with a better plan-to the beach baybay! We went to McDonalds, bought some foods and speed off to pantai ape tah kat tol selepas Pantai Bersih tu.
To our surprise, BANYAK GILA MAT REMPIT.
Farhanah cutie was shivering all the way, scared to even look outside the car and we almost quit from our original plan. But then, we parked our car jugak and still pergi beach. Damnit, memang its somekinda reunion or gathering of Rempit's. We felt like we were on the location of shooting cerita Bohsia-Jangan Pilih Jalan Gelap. wakaka.
Malam tadi jugak, was the first time for me, Eka and Farhanah to watch Rempits doing stunts like superman(or should i say Flying Dutchman?), ronggeng and so much more, wheelie too! Oh my, ini pertama kali, memang gila LAME aku ni.
Semua pun nak first time kan.
Malu je kat junior dah rasa semuaaa ni sebelum aku. Deng..



We stayed there for few hours, eating, loitering around and doing some Gossip Girl-on-the-beach scenes, until i almost fall asleep and okay, jom balik rumah sekarang.
And the best part, when we were on the journey back to Nia's place, jeng jeng jeng, we've been challenged by this one Black Perodua Viva, for a race. Kau gila ke ape, the car was filled with, like, 4-5 guys..? That we assumed to be student UiTM jugak ni, tengok muka pun tahu-punye type. And guess what, Nia acceptd the challenge and we raced back against them. We turned on the loudest volume and the speakers boostd out its loud music, budget cerita Tokyo Drift ke hape. Then we raced back, kau potong aku aku potong kau balik patu ulang balik ulang balik.

Pastu kitorang menang. End.

Patu kat roundabout, both of us terpisah, their car's taking the 3 o'clock turn and us with the 9 o'clock. Pastu da sampai depan rumah Nia buat kerja gila and asked us to buckle up our seatbelts, we're gonna hunt back the guys and asked them for another race. GILA KAN. yeah i know this is so not FD. Aku selalu kan delicate little flower bajahahahaha takpe la save it la, last night i was totally out of myself.
We lauged, we screamed, we cheered, and we danced, so out of control, nasib la ada kesedaran sikit bila dah penat dan suara hilang.
(#_#)


We chased back the car and miraculously we found it! Just to make it sounds simpler, we got back into a race and belum sempat determine sape yag menang, we ran away. Nia drove the car as fast as she can, to know that there were rempits in the car, not just normal 'soo-UiTM-guys' like we expected. The driver if the Black Viva, he even put down his screen and stopped us on the road, telling that they wanna follow us around. YEAH I KNOW ITS SCARY!!
But then, well, i'm turning 20 in very few days counting... So, what?
At least i wanna experience something crazy jugak, i wanna try to enjoy a little bit here and there sementara youth era ni.
Ngahahahahaha. and yesterday i did.



We managed to escaped from the rempits who were hunting us down lastnight, but i tell you, it was scary, damn scary as hell that we suddenly switched off the loud radio and tiba tiba aku dengar Eka kat belakang and Nia kat tepi tengah speeding sambil sok sek sok sek, rupa rupanye semua tengah baca ayat pelindung ke hape semua nya cuwak habis.
Well that includes me. Amboi tadi kau semua kemain lagi kejar balik cari balik hunt the Black Viva down and then suddenly dah jumpa, lari pulak.
Wakaka. Rempits are super scary okay, I read this one articles telling that they could've kill and rape for satisfaction okay....
Aku mmg taubat la mintak dijauhkan laa mereka mereka ni.



As we got home, (finally after ikut jalan seram yang gelap dan tersembunyi, semata mata nak lari daripada para rempit), dua orang bodyguard tadi dah tunggu. Haha sian gile kan tak dapat race pastu tunggu je kat buaian depan rumah.


We cleaned ourselves up, watched The Nanny halfway and.......i fell asleep, i was the first to do so. Well it was a wonderful experience. Nothing can buy it. So random, so naughty and nasty, stupid, but yet still so crazily fun. Well at least i have something gooood to remember and brag about my very 1st overnight in Penang to my friends yang sama jugak havent been to any night out before. ahaha i'm out of the boring-innocent club now, officially. [o_O]



Well as to wrap out story of my 1st time going to Penang and overnight with friends, there's very few pictures to be shared.
and till then, im looking forward another trip more in the future. Asalkan tak melibatkan any more rempit sudah. Oh please big no. Takut sangat.



Eka and Hana, lets pray that my dad will allow me to drive a car here for next sem, and so we can go out together more often, and jangan risau i wont drive as crazy as Nia did yesterday.
and thanks to you Nia, for letting us stay at your place, it was a funny night and i wont forget it for sho.
Best-flirt-friend and Haikal, thanks for driving us around and Haikal maybe you should try to be less harsh toward Eka your sister.
Remember, she's my little sister too! *amaran*
Macam nak rebut custody terhadap Zalikha je sekarang bahahahah.



Till the next time!

So tell me, if this was my pre-examination-escapades', What's yours..?
XoXo, FD Anuar.

Panduan untuk insan insan yang ditimpa musibah. Bawak bawak bersabar ye.

Pertama sekali..
Salam takziah buat sahabat farah yang baru kehilangan ibu nya beberapa hari lepas.
Pulangnya Allahyarhamah ke Ilahi pergi dengan doa dan tangis kami semua.
Haziq kuat kan diri okay. Semua orang akan lalui jugak, it's just that your turn sampai dulu sebelum kitorang yang lain.


Musibah adalah satu bentuk ujian dan dugaan, yang akan menimpa semua orang cuma berlainan waktu dan bentuk musibah yang menimpa, sebab semua tu terletak dalam tangan-Nya.


Hari ini kita bantu membantu sesama kita dengan bercerita tentang musibah dan cara cara menghadapinya.


Kita mungkin fikir kita adalah orang paling malang, kasihan, tak bernasib baik, sial, tak ada harapan dan sebagainya bila satu satu ujian besar datang dan menimpa kita. Especially bila semua orang lain pun happy happy je tapi kita banyaaaakkk sangat dugaan pancaroba segala.
Kita selalu kata Tuhan itu tak adil sebab buat kita je susah tapi kawan kita yang sorang tu dapat semua yang senang senang, kawan kita yang sorang tu tak pernah menangis, dan kawan kita yang sorang lagi tak ada masalah langsung keluarga bahagia belajar pandai duit banyak rupa pun comel ah semua ada laa sekarang..


Bilamana kita ditimpa musibah dan kesusahan, kita sering mudah kecewa, senang rebah dan putus asa, kita menangis kerana itu sahaja yang termampu, kita mencari tempat dan cara untuk mengadu, kita fikir semua itu dah cukup disaster buat kita, padahal ada yang lebih teruk menimpa pada orang lain.
Tapi kita terlupa semua tu.
Lupa.
Kita fikir kita sahaja yang malang susah banyak dugaan dann cobaan.


Salahhh tuuu.
Semua orang pun ada masalah, cuma cara mereka mengatasi dan berhadapan dengan nya sahaja yang membezakan samada kita stress lebih atau mereka.
Atau mereka nampak sangat bahgie walhal masalah berjela jela.
Semua tu pandai cover je sebenarnye.


Musibah sebenarnye adaah satu hadiah dari Ilahi untuk kita semua. Kenapa farah kata begitu?
Mudah.. Kerana musibah membuat kita berfikir cara terbaik untuk menghadapinya. Mengajar kita bersabar, mengawal emosi, mengawal keadaan dan menentukan apa yang terbaik untuk dijadikan pilihan bagi keputusan terbaik.
Musibah adalah dugaan yang Tuhan turunkan buat hamba hambanya yang terpilih. Semua orang mungkin kena, tapi tak semua kena sama cara dan waktunya.
Dan tak semua mampu hadapi nya.
Musibah mengejutkan, tapi sedarkah semua yang hasil penghujung setiap musibah mesti menghasilkan pengajaran..?


Baru sedar?


Apakata selepas ni kalau kita semua ditimpa musibah, kita hadapi dengan positive, dan anggap yang everything will be okay soon. Everything will end up in a good way jugak, insyaAllah, kalau kita boleh go through dengan cara yang betul. :)


Musibah boleh turun dalam macam macam bentuk,
- ikan emas mati
- kucing belaan kena langgar treler lalu depan ruma
- assignment account hilang dicuri atau disabotaj orang
- kehilangan orang tersayang
- kehilangan benda tersayang/ada unsur2 personal
- putus cinta
- gagal selepas berkali kali berusaha
- dilempar fitnah atau kata kata kesat
- arnab belaan hilang
- nenek sakit
- diri sendiri sakit dan diberitahu menghidapi Idiopathic Scoliosis (*_*)
- mak abah bercerai
- adik lari dari rumah
- kakak abang kena tangkap isap ganja
dan banyak lagi.
Banyak lagi lebih dahsyat dari semua di atas ni.
Well, obviously..


Antara langkah langkah yang boleh diambil untuk menghadapi musibah yang diturunkan oleh-Nya kepada kita adalah seperti demikian (fo real dude, fo real);


1. Kawal emosi dan jangan menyalahkan takdir.

Menyalahkan takdir adalah berDOSA. Takdir itu adalah ketentuan Allah s.w.t dan kita bukan sesiapa untuk mempersoalkan segala nya. Apa yang kita boleh lakukan adalah terima dan muhasabah diri untuk mengkaji mana datangnya punca masalah itu dan elak menyalahkan sesiapa sebagai puna masalah tersebut. Kawal lah emosi, elak mengeluarkan kata kata kesat hanya untuk mengekspresikan kemarahan/kekecewaan. Menangis mungkin menenangkan, tapi ingatlah jangan sampai meratap sayu tertidur dengan mata bengkak dan bangun terus sambung menangis. Bukankah Allah s.w.t melarang kita terlalu meratapi sesuatu musibah?


2. Bersabar dan mengambil langkah berjaga jaga.

Sabar lah dan jangan nak hempas hempas segala pintu di lorong dormitori anda. Selain itu langkah langkah precaution seperti diam dan elak buat benda benda yang menambahkan tension adalah harus diambil. Jangan makan sebarang pil, vitamin C boleh, tapi jangan sampai consume Bena Expectorant lebih lebih dan kelar tangan di urat nadi. Jangan x3.


3. Bersyukur dan ingat benda benda best best yang pernah jadi.

Masa nak kena inject BCG dengan tetannus waktu darjah enam ke form 3, farah rasa sangat azab. Pastu nurse tu cakap;
"imagine you're on a cruise trip with your dearie beloved"

Haaaa macam pikir lah benda benda yang indah. Jangan terlalu fokus pada kekecewaan dan kesusahan yang melanda diri ini. Bersyukur lah yang at least kita ditimpa musibah pun takdela sampai kebuluran di Afrika, berlakunya genocide dan global warming yang teruk. *haha tajuk global issues semua nya
Sekurang kurang nya, kita masih berpeluang menghirup udara yang nyaman minum air yang bersih. Okay iklan Indah Water. teeehehehe.


4. Beringat ingat lah kepada yang SATU, dan hitung amal-mungkar sendiri.

Beristighfar dan mengamalkan Zikrullah ketika hati gulana boleh menenangkan hati kita semua. Kalau dapat buat yang sunat sunat lagi bagus. Secara tak langsung ia dapat melekakan kita dari memikirkan semua musibah yang menyusahkan hati dan dapat membantu kita slowly lupakan benda benda tu. Selain itu kalau kita renung renung dan kira benda benda baik kita buat serta compare dengan benda benda jahat kita ter-buat, kita juga akan dapat memperbaiki perangai dan cara kita menghadapi hidup kita sehari-harian.


5. Tawakkal dan berserah setelah mencuba.

Bila kita tahu kita dah cuba terbaik untuk selesaikan sesuatu masalah, kita pasti boleh sabar dan tunggu sahaja hasilnya nanti. By that time, it is for us to leave everything to be evaluated and decided by The Almighty. Tawakkal, dan jangan berhenti berdoa. Berharap dan menjadi optimistik itu tak ada salahnya, terutama sekali kalau kita dah pun berusaha untuk mendapatkan terbaik. Berserah lah dan jangan persoal kuasa Tuhan untuk menentukan apa yang bakal jadi seterusnya. Baik buruk sesuatu itu pasti ada hikmahnya. Itu harus diingat. :)


Itulah sahaja yang farah rasa boleh kita kongsi, sebenarnya tak salah kalau kita hendak ekspresikan tekanan yang kita alami atas kesan musibah yang menimpa diri kita, tapi beringat ingatlah dalam pada kita ekspresikan itu, mungkin ada satu dua yang akan terguris hati.


Sekian, selamat menempuhi dugaan dugaan dalam hari hari mendatang dengan penuh ketabahan kesabaran. Semoga hidup kita diberkati yang Satu.

Ikhlas;
FaraDiba Anuar ♥

Yang cuba menenangkan hati gulana FD. ♥

Kakak kakak semua,
Terima Kasih bawak pergi shopping sampai
ter-beli banyak sangat baju dalam satu hari.
Nanti kita pergi WaterFall pulak ok.
With bikinis underneath the t-shirts.
White t-shirts.
(@_@)








Okay aku cukup tak puas hati gambar last muka aku terbenam sebab
SUNLIGHT.
Mentang mentang
Little Miss Sunshine.
coyyy..

Juniors, u have to cry reading this. Because i cried as hell pouring my heart for it. ♥

To my beloved juniors,
pre-lawrians,
rapat atau renggang mana sekalipun kita,
mengaku sahaja, last few days sebelum kau semua berangkat,
pasti ada sikit rasa berat kau semua nak tinggalkan tempat ni.
Pasti ada kau rasa menyesal tak kenal akak dengan lebih rapat lagi sebelum ni.
Pasti ada, even sedikit pun.


*Adila, Fiza, Alia, akan terasa lah bilamana di Shah Alam takkan ada senior suka datang singgah dan makan nasik lemak bersama.
SILA RINDU AKAK LEPASNI.

*pastu sebab aku ada rasa begitu waktu aku bukak kemas cuci dan bersihkan bilik kamu semua untuk clearance beberapa hari lalu.
EMI sexay DAN KAUM KERABAT;
ama suruh letak nama dia ama tomei,
sarah gebu, si tokey selendang kerek tu si diyan tu, dengan si ily ganas.


Aku tak pasti menangis aku waktu tu atas dasar apa,
penat mengemas, kecewa ditinggalkan, atau terasa hilang kawan.
Tapi bila lama baru aku tahu.
Its the value of Friendship.
We might not sign any declaration of friendship or even sisterhood of traveling pants or somewhat,
but guys, i shed my tears for letting go all of you this time..


By that, i know all of you at least left something in my heart already la, girls.
Now lets just hope this 'thing' can lasts,
for at least we keep in touch thru the social networking sites,
or even thru text msgs or phonecalls.


I hate to say this,
but i will surely miss you girls,
and having to go through the coming days,
it aint the same with no-more-all-of-you.


Girls,
Akak sayang korang semua.
Jaga diri di Shah Alam.
Jangan lupa akak,
and samada akak sambung UiTM atau bukan UiTM sekalipun,
i will make sure i will visit u girls in Shah Alam faculty of law.
And you guys have to belanja me super duper makan tengahari nanti!

Dont ever forget me.
♥XoXo♥

To my only one kakak sedarah sedaging setembam apam eh silap.

Its 13th October 2009.
Its Akak Wawa's Birthday!
Happy Birthday to you akak!
We love you so much no matter how bad u scratched my face and you pull my Serena Van Der Woodsen luscious hair,
and despite all the nasty catfights we had each time we gathered kat rumah,
i loveeeee you so much still.


You are my only one kakak kandung se-mama se-abah,
pinjam baju pinjam handbag kasut selendang tudung segala,
you're always considered younger than me
bila makcik makcik semua sedara jauh datang rumah atau berhari raya
semua orang selalu kata Kak Diba lah yang tua,
akak lah yang number dua,
yelah number dua kan selalu supposedly paling comel.
Padahal yang number dua ni low profile je.
Ish ish ish.


Akak, i pray the best for you,
and congratulations for all your achievements in ur studies,
i am so proud of you bab yang tu.
Akak i wish u all the best in ur life,
ur studies,
ur love life,
ur everiting.
And i hope that you will find a good abang ipar for me.
Eh eh i mean a good laki for yourself,
and jadi abang ipar kek diba and syira.


Akak, again..
I wish u a wonderful 23rd Birthday!
U inspires me since i was soooo sooo little,
sekarang dah besar lagi masi tepengaruh.
akak i love you so much!
X0X0!

You know, Sexy Charlie only leaves lovebites on Sexy Lady...

Hi.
Ever heard of Simone Carvalli? Go google.
As early as the age of 15 y.o, i have been dreaming to put on a tube-gown as my wedding dress,
when the time has come.
And yess, there's no other than Simone Carvalli the great, mastermind behind superb-lines of awesome and gorgeous bridal dresses and wedding gowns.
And yess, of course he designed the best tube dresses among all other designers, well at least thats what i personally think abt him.



When i studied all these before, i have even made up my mind that i might have started to collect my own money from that age of 15y.o, to make sure by the time i am going to be married, i have enough money to buy that piece of Carvalli that i wanted soo much.
Gosh, that was for real im telling you.
And till now, of course i keep on dreaming of the same thing too,
wearing that wonderful piece of long tube dress, walking down the aisle..



OKAY BERHENTI SEKARANG.



Lets just make it this way,
tell you what laa, peeps, semalam aku kena bisa/sengat/bius Charlie.
Kau tahu Charlie?
Ever heard of it?
Here, click this.



Well you see, early morning yesterday, i woke up as usual with that Serena's hair of mine bahahah perasan,
except that when i brushed my hair down the shoulder, terasa macam somekinda burning sensation gitu.
and when i take off my clothes to see what the heck is that painful feeling,
i was gawking in awe to see the whole area of my left shoulder dah mirah/biru.
LEBAM. as if ive got beaten by somekinda suami kaki pukul.
Damnit, i even joke about it to my roomies,
telling how sexy it is to have such scratch on the shoulder,
as in a nasty night out la ape la haha mind you,
i really JOKE about it at 1st.
BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY NONE OF US KNOW IT WAS ACTUALLY CHARLIE's BITEss.. (or sengat or whatever u might call it)



And so i put on my clothes, go to the classes as usual without knowing that the burning pain on the left shoulder was actually sexy bites by the sexy Charlie.
STUPID CHARLIE im telling you i'll hunt the whole legacy down! (*_*)



By that night, i have to go for another session of photoshoot with the juniors,
and so i bathe, changed as usual but after the shower i realized that the bruises is getting PRETTIER, in a way, since the RED-ness were too pretty to be refused to looked at.
Okay whats with the grammatical error ignore it then.



Somehow i left for the photoshoot without worries,
i thought it was just somekinda allergies,
maybe its because of our SportsDay previously, i got myself exposed to too much sunshine,
oh Little Miss Sunshine whatever.



In the middle of the photoshoot,
the burning pain attacked again. This time, it was too extreme that i felt like my skin have been burned out alive.
Seriously. I told Emellia about it, and Angah pulled down the zipper of my clothes to look over the affected area.
The first word came out of Emillia's mouth was;
"FD, thats Charlie."



OKAY EMI SERONOK GILA AKU DENGAR HANG KATA MACAMTU WAKTU TU.


I went fainted.

Okay tipu.

I was so panicked, like,
HAH?! NAK BUAT APA NI?! MACAM MANA SKRG NI?! BOLEH BAIK KE TAK?! APA AKAN JADI NI?!



But all Emi answered was just;
SCARS. YOU'LL GET A HECK OF SCARS.
Beautiful one.



Lagi lah aku rasa nak pengsan. It changed the mood lasnite, terus moody, and i dont even care to take any of the photos they captured last night, as soon as the session ends, i grabbed emi and angah and nak balik bilik cepat nak tanggal semua baju sakit sangat dah ni.
The pain continues, rasa berdenyut denyut di situ. Hebat betul ciuman maut Charlie ini.
And as i reached my room, without bothering to change my clothes and wipe out the makeups first, (sbb emi mekap cantik sangat kalau boleh nak tido dengan mekap tu boleh tak? :p)
I turned on my lappy and click on Google.com.
I Googled for Charlie and this is what i got;



Seriously, who wouldn't freaked out seeing such damages on your body, like that?!
I freaked out as well, and started panicking over one ugly picture.
And i keep on reading..
And reading..
And it says..
SOMETIMES THE SCARS ARE PERMANENT. IT LASTS.
WTF so i can now assume that i am having one COOL TATTOO on my left shoulder.
Thanks, Sexy Charlie, you bit me, and left me with a sexy tattoo, what the hell do you think this is? One Night Stand?



Man, i am so pissed with this devilish creature.
I swear my whole generation will continue the rivalry between us.
Shut.



So that was then,
the whole photoshoot ain't that fun anymore, since the pain distracted me through out the whole night.
I havent manage to get any of the photos taken by my cute little photographer, Olan, but he promised to give it later.
And i seemed not to care much this time.
ITS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU, Charlie. Sexy Charlie. Bit me on my neck and shoulder. So sexy of you.
*muka pasrah



As i went to the clinic to seek fer the remedies on this effing pain i had,
the doctor gave me an MC note and together with a bag of pills, antibiotics and gel cream for me to apply on that affected skin area.
Can i cry now?
(x_x)



I can now say goodbye to my little-girl's dream to put on a tube wedding dress on the wedding day nanti. I cannot wear anything sexy anymore, it's all because of the TATTOO left by my sexy charlie who gave me that lovebites last two night.
Maybe it is time for me to get covered.
Aha ahaa sakit hati aku betul.



And thats why i am poruing my heart out now.
Looking at the pictures of the pretty dresses, aww..
Sambil sapu krim allergy kat bahu kiri dengan muka menahan sakit.
It covers the whole left shoulder area, up to the neck,
and it bruises OBVIOUSLY, sape taknampak memang tak lama la tu, lagi 3 jumaat.
Seriously obvious.
Can see from miles away.
Btw i refused to upload any picture of it(my Charlie lovebites) here because Chuck Bass might scold me of uploading sexy pictures of mine, while he was suppose to be the only one who have passport to it.
Miahahaha.



Okay then.
Now i wanna go continue google-ing over the web to seek the best remedies to cure the pain and to clean up the scars.
Hey Sexy Charlie, i dont wanna have sexy nights with you anymore.
You dont bite sexily, you bite hurtfully!
*!%&@$%(&#$$#

Yang kecewa amat,
charlie's-kisses-tattooed-sexaay-girl, FD.

BLACK is elegant. Except kalau black yang jadi sebab berjemur tengah matahari terik untuk Sports Day faculty.

SPORTS DAY.

ohhh tell me tell me tell me about it bebeh.
one best word to describe the event=GELAP.


It is because there's nobody manage to go back without new complexion.
Brand new, shiny-shiny, superdark complexion i'm actually talking about,
especially for those in the category of 'french toast' macam aku ni.


Takat main bola jaring 15 minit,
balut2 mummy tengah padang,
lari huha huha sana sini dah jadi macam kopi.
Gelap gila, bukan white coffee okay.
Cey betul.


I went to the stadium wearing my acid wash jeans,
apa bangang sangat pakai jeans baru ke padang untuk aerobic?!
I thought i wont be joining any games,
takat pocong pocong boleh la.
Bajet tanak main la konon nak duduk diam diam low profile seketika,
senyum senyum duduk dan melambai lambai kan tangan je kat orang yang lalu lalang kat tangga stadium tu,
That was exactly the original plan.


Unfortunately, president DIPAC sound setepek;
"ape pakai jeans ni, macam mana nak main?!"
And the facial expressions telling me that i am so gonna be forced to participate the games throughout the day,
and looking at the begging faces of the juniors;
"Kak Faraaaaaa balik laaaa tukar sweatpants, nak akak main bolajaring karanggg patu ada main bawak bola pingpong dengan spoon patu ada main lari lari macamana nak lari kalau akak pakai jeans n haaaa."


So i walked back to the college.
Gila baik,
tukar sweatpants. Together with the sneakers.
Ceyyyy niat nak rebel takmo main game budak2 part 3 terus kensel.
Tengok tengok bila sesampai di stadium selepas dah tukaq seluaq,
aku terus tarik tangan adam pergi main game tiup tepung amek gula dalam tepung.
Gile lah zaman zaman kindergarten siyut.


The best part was when this one junior out of nowhere datang berlari lari manja kearah ku tiba tiba dia sapu bedak kat pipi aku.
SERONOK GILA.
GILAAAA SUKAAAAAA~~


Haha, to adik mistery, you are so cute but i think there's a better way to say hi akak, i so the very the like tengok you kakak FD, nah, i put this tepung as tanda sayang how i adore you sangat.
Pastu siap mintak number phone segala.
I know, i know, CUTE, kan?!
Wahahah.
Akak tak marah la adik. Tapi akak tekezzut. NAaasib baik akak sempat sapu jugak tepung kat idung adik walaupun kita belum kenal lagi disaat perang tepung itu.
(*_*)
Mesra kan akak ni? huehuehue.


Gile mistery adik tu...


Right after the morning session ended,
we went back to the dorm apelagi masing2 separa naked la, panas gila.
And the peak climax puncak cerita dan semua yang sama erti dengannya,
aku menggelabah tengok cermin, muka dah jadi Pocahontas.
Tiba tiba aku rasa patut layak dah tukar kerakyatan jadi orang Bangla ke hape.
Rasa nak nangis, roomate semua panicked, pegi cuci muka,
7 kali i tell you, SEVEN TIMES bebeh.
cuci rinse, cuci rinse patu rembat bedak sejuk junior roomate.
Patu pakai sampai muka jadi macam hantu.
bukan ponti lagi di saat itu,
dah macam tak terkata punya hodoh.
Ya Allah. aku takut gila jadi gelap okay.
Tolong laaaaaa mengerti.


Selepas selesai rasa nak scrub muka sampai tertanggal kulit dah itam legam,
pastu 3 kali wash rinse lagi,
patu dengan thinner eh silap toner haha gilakau nak sapu thinner kat muka bagus jugak mungkin terus putih takkan hitam.
Last last ter-fall asleep.
To tired, maka bila bangun tidur tu toksah tanye aaa nasib baik takde orang dalam bilik perassan yang ada orang zaman purba bajet model brazil beradu tanpa pakaian di katil atas.
Adoi.


The event was great btw,
Cuma i was expecting MORE games.
Yang lain sikit,
macam pelik pelik sikit ke,
bukan takat kain batik terbang, buat la kain kapan terbang ke apa ke haaaa something out of the box you know, out of the box bebeh.


Gila dah aku.
That night, I had to cancel the photoshoot with the cute Mr. Photographer okay forget it FD he's so junior shut up FD,
and luckily Mr. Cute Photographer ohh please la,
he said takpe takpe,
when i asked him if its okay tak jadi nak shoot semalam.
Tak larat do,
(padahal tak nak orang semua terkejut time shooting yang bekas ponti muka dah terbakar.)

Sooooo,
Nah, look at all the pictures captured!

Muka suci putih Ya Allah tipu gila kamera ni.
huhu.
this was taken before we walked to the stadium.
PUTIH PULAK.

I tagged myself in Facebook as Serena Van Der Woodsen,
for this picture.
HAHAHA.
admit it admit it admit it cepatt!!!!
:p

Safena was the mummy.
haha.
Mind you, we won this game okay.
Pastu rebut hamper dgn junior part one.
Malu je ahahaha.

Menarikkkk kan??
Memang bangla dah time ni.

SUPER-legam.
ENUFF SAID.

WANY mabuk lepas dapat hamper hadiah.
haha best gila gambar ni do!

Sebab kan amik gambar dengan Aimi Gonzales the diva,
terus gambar nak shining shining silau satu malaysia.

TERUS TAKNAMPAK APA GAMBAR NI.

I know this will sound so not me,
but at this moment, kami semua rinduuuu sangat kat Shafiq Shariff,
ex saye photographer rasmi DIPAC yang selalu amik gambar best2 time ada event.
Awak awak, nape laa awak pindah kampus Sarawak.
Awak marah sangat ke kite mintak break.
Tengok nii, gambar kiterang semua bosan je sem ni punye sport dey,
tak ade awakk..
SOBS SOBS

pastu semua kata;
Jom cuba buat buat muka happy jom,
kita bagi Shafiq tengok kita berhari sukan sem ni tanpa dia,
tapi dengan senyuman untuk dia,
biar dia rindu patu rasa nak balik Kedah semula.
(harapan laaa dia nak balik....)


Sooo semua...
SENYUMMMMMMM!!

So itu jela sem ni tak berapa best untuk kiterang,
maybe best untuk batch yang organize,
just like how excited we were, the previous year.


Shafiq in case you read this kan,
we all wanna say WE MISS YOU SO MUCH.
Ni bukan i yang cakap ok u.
Semalam i dengar budak laki pun cakap benda ni tau.
Takde dah orang lari lari bawak Sony DSLR dia.
Huhuk sedey.


Bye.

Chopped 'em off, baby! ♥

This House Believe That Faradiba Doesn't Make a Good Ponti.

and with that motion,
i think it is time to get myself a new haircut.
So that i wont look like any old Ponti in the next coming shooting.
x_x

Before transformation;
Long, sloppy, pontianak-alike, creepy, tangled, damages andddd fuhh teruk gila ke.

Lets read till the end of the entry to see the final result,
the solution to this creepy look i have above.
(the hair)

Hello people.
Looking at my previous posts talking about how i look like a Pontianak due to my bajet-sexy-long-hair, what can you guys conclude from them? The ridiculous pictures, i mean.
It just matches the term 'Ponti' so well, kan?


Today as i woke up i am determined to get myself a new haircut.
And by that, i really thought i was prepared and the final decision was to cut it short.
No more Serena Van Der Woodsen, bebeh.
I brushed my hair with full of love as i thought right after surrendering the waves to the hairdresser, there will be no more curly curls and long-layers,
no more no more.


And so i went to see emillio the favorite Salon,
and so i got a new haircut, thinking of something slightly shorter than Serena,
maybe this time i ashould make it Blair's,
blablabla.


And here's the result after the snipsnaps choppings blowings and refreshing the new look,
I have to say that i am very satisfied.
This is the reason i loved Emillio so much.






Mind you, i got scolded for requesting on a shorter hairdo,
he said it will be a great lost if i am to cut the hair short.
So, i told him, do whatever the best he can do.
I wanna have a new hair-do.
And that was the result.
Of all the things he did, i was so excited about the fringe.


But thinking how my hair will grow longer in just a week time,
hmphhhh.. It makes no different to have a fringe or not to have any.



So thats it for today.
Tomorrow i will be having another photoshoot session and i am not planning for any-more-kebaya-pictures..
A dress maybe, this time?
Lemme think abt it 1st.
Goodnight darling dear readers!
XoXo*

You can now try to join CLEO Most Eligible Bachelor Contest as you are officially 20 years old, beberapa jam lalu.

My best friend is turning 20.
and i can never be any happier,
cuma bila aku tanye ape kau nak buat bila dah twenty kau kata kau nak pegi kelab kot,
aku rasa macam nak stapler hidung kau banyak banyak kali kat KL nanti.



1st October 1989
is the birth day of the besteres-test friend I have ever had in my life.
Yessss and that is Ammar Lutfi the one and only gem permata hati segala bagai anak angkat mama adik lelaki kesayangan akak wawa dan abang angkat syira haha Ammar kau paham aku tak de adik beradik lelaki kan kan.
Harap paham.



Ammar,
since i know you think i sounds like Laura gedik when i speak in English so for you i will only talk in Bahasa eh i mean write in Bahasa for this one special entry to wish you the bestest besday,
walaupun lambat post niat aku ikhlas kau tahu,
aku punye wireless ber-bayar di PCNiaga ni buat hal lah pulak sewaktu besday kau,
sekarang baru bulih guna.
Jangan nak mengomel di sessi bergayut-sampai-bill-kau-naik yang seterusnya nanti.



Here we start okay,
ammar... (jeng jeng jeng)
When I first know you, I never thought wey apasal aku cakap Bahasa Inggeris pula ni.
*Semula semula*



Baiiiklah ammar, waktu mula2 aku member dengan kau dulu aku mana tahu kau ni best giler macam sekarang ni.
aku selalu ingat kau ni gay. Jahat gile aku pastu aku rasa cam best kawan dengan kau sebab kau ni when the clock strikes 12pm kau berubah jadi Rihanna dengan exotic dance kau masa kita kelas Neptune dulu.
Kau dahla blur, pastu redha je tiap kali aku tolak kau jatuh kerusi masa kat kelas.
Aku kan ganas.
Aku kan macam anak jantan sape tah cakap dulu ingat tak.
Mama kata aku ni anak lelaki family sebab selalu aku jela yang bila semua orang dah tido 3 pagi aku senyap senyap bukak Astro nak tengok bola.
Tapi bila mama dah kenal maka mama mula cinta ahahha macam celaka ayat aku.



Tak lama selepas tu
Mama mula memanggil kau anak lelaki.
Maka senang cerita kau selamat kan aku sebab sekarang kalau tengok bola sambil korek hidung pun mama will not call me anak jantan keluarga anymore.
Okay korek hidung tu tipu.
But i am so glad you are my besterestest friend aku rosakkan bahasa demi kau kat situ.


I am so glad my family have extra anak lelaki.
I am so glad you are my assistant editor majalah sekolah hahaha tiba tiba.


Ammar kau masih ingat semua mangsa2 gossip kita?
Masih ingat rival aku di zaman sekolah yang aku paksa kau jadikan dia rival juga?
Hehe. Kau ingat conteng2 wall kat belakang kelas masa form 5?
Masa aku bengang kau dapat masuk masscomm 1st intake while abah suruh aku reject 1st intake offer, then aku dapat pulak Sarawak where the grass is greener?
Ergh, i have to spill the truth now i am so afraid when you had to leave simply because aku terlalu dependent kat kau masa tu,
And when you have done with the 1st sem,
aku baru nak pegi ujian X-Ray nak daftar UiTM,
i was not happy that it was not Malacca that i got into, not with you,
sekali dapat SP Sooo Perfek.



Tapi kau kata takpe nanti tuka lah kampus.
(tapi kan ammar aku rasa aku tau nape aku rezeki mahal permohonan tukar kampus asek gagal, sebab kalau aku UiTM Melaka aku akan terpakse berdepan orang yang K.O tu. Kan??)
Nasib baik jugak la aku tak pindah part one dulu.
Tapi what i like the most is the fact that we never fail to keep in touch with each other.
Walaupun setiap kali touch aku mesti sepak terajang dan cubit serta tampar kau sehingga kau buat muka Stone Cold Steve Austin.
Malangnya kau tak berdaya melawan aku yang terlalu brutal ini bajajajajaja.



Ammar,
sejak sekolah rendah kite kenal,
dari total stranger to kawan se-Badan Pengawas Sekolah, baca ikrar sesama,
pastu waktu darjah tiga Amy Mastura datang sekolah kita,
kita ada dance ramai ramai untuk Hari Sukan,
aku jadi si Matahari (dari kecik dah dasar Little Miss Sunshine. membakarr betul kan), aku teringat muka kau yang sememeh di bawah khemah menahan kepanasan time kiterang yang lain tegedik gedik menari.
Kau usya je.
Kau misti tak sangka yang ni aku ingat kan.
Haha cepat touching cepat! Aku ingat semuaaa la Ammar.
Dan aku baru terperasan muka kau taim tu same je dengan skrg hahaha.



So itu dulu darjah tiga,
sekarang kau dah bukan darjahdarjah dah.
Dari zaman 5 Bestari aku buat havoc masuk masuk sekolah je dah dapat jadi pengawas,
sampai darjah 6 Kepujian kau sama kelas dgn aku sama sama kena denda diri atas kerusi kalau tak dapat jawab soalan Cikgu Saiful hensem,
sampai form 1 aku pindah ke PD High School,
balik KL semula dah jadi mat salleh celup sebab sekolah British-Based pun kau masih kawan lagi.
Aku bapak teharu gile.



Masa sekolah menengah malas nak cerita la aku pun macam disaster sikit,
tapi bila form 4 nak pilih stream apa,
dan aku pilih LK kau pun sama,
sama kelas lah kita pastu aku terus rasa Oh Mann..We are so bff.
Memang betul forever nampak nya.
Sampai form 5.
Sampai masuk U.
Sampai aku tension kau tiap sem pun dekan. Benci gila.
Sampai aku call 11.55 malam tadi sebab eksaited sangat tak larat nak tunggu pukul 12 pastu semua roomate aku sekali menyanyi untuk kau.



Sampai sekarang, dan aku pasti sampai kalau aku pergi dulu sebelum kau nanti,
you will never fail me.
I know it.



You are now 20 years old.
Out of that 20 years you have been living,
kau sedar tak sebenarnya lebih separuh tahun dari angka itu kau telah berkawan dengan aku?
Dan aku tak payah nak ragu kalau aku masih andartu 10 tahun dari sekarang ni nanti,
kau dah berkahwin dan beranak lebih satu,
aku tahu, kau masih akan ada untuk mengutuk kalau gambar photoshoot aku seperti Akak Ponti,
dan kau akan ada untuk kondem baju raya aku yang tak cun dan yang paling penting untuk makan paling banyak bila aku masak tapi tak mengaku dan kata K.O makan lebih banyak masa open haus haritu, nehhhh..
Dan yang pasti kalau aku mati nanti kau akan jadi saksi betapa aku masak memang sedap setiap kali.
Sebab kau paling banyak melantak aku masak segala jenis kepakaran aku iaitu Spageti haha bajet Italy.



So ammar,
Aku dah call, nyanyi, cuma slack tak buat 3G, sebab malam malam macamni bahaya buat 3G kat UiTM sini,
hadiah pun aku dah beli, cuma tunggu nak balik je nak bagi, tak best ah post post ni,
mama pun boleh buat kek sekali nanti,
sekarang aku cuma nak kata ni,
(cewah macam pantun pula hehehe)


Happy 20th BirthDay to You my Best Friend.


I thought the term bestfriend only exists in Disney Movies,
but you proved me that its not true.
I have you.


Selamat Hari Jadi,
Have a great one, even i am not able to go there to baling tepung or firecracker to selebret with you.

Much Love,
your gorgeous as always annoying bff, Diba.

Sometimes hiding behind the happy face ain't really workin..

Before i decided to write this i asked myself million times on the consequences,
what will people think of me how will people look at me after reading it how will people react once they saw me and what will the future be.


Sometimes thinking too much about what people might think of us can be the fastest and the most efficient killer.
But i am raised up to think in that way, to concern about what people might think and now here i am keeping few tings that i should've spilled to some others before,
and it is such a massive pain i have in my head now.


Have you cried for no reason?
Feel sad looking at happy things?
Cried even before the saddest scene came out in a movie?
Stay cold in front of your funniest friend?
Refused to listen to any happy tunes because you keep on telling the roomates to play the saddest song they have on their playlist?
Cant sleep at night and feeling moody most of the time?
EVEN Gossip Girl don't even work to boost the mood back..?


What a symptom..


AKU TAKUT NAK DEKAT FINAL DAH NI KAU TAHU TAK.
ENTAH MACAM MANA LA CARRY MARK SEM NI,
ENTAH DAPAT KE TAK MAINTAIN RESULT ELOK UNTUK SEM NI,
ENTAH DAPAT KE TAK POINTER TINGGI TINGGI SUPAYA SENANG NAK SAMBUNG DEGREE NANTI,
ENTAH ITU ENTAH INI.


Help me.
Release me, set me free from this suffocation.
Nak mati dah.
(+_+)


Sekian. Tu je sebenarnye.

and here's the real heart-breaker.

Thanks to the BFF ammar lutfi,
I have already watched the first three episodes of the Gossip Girl Season 3.
Okey tipu baru dua episodes je okay ari tolong bertenang jangan pengsan dulu.


And i am so in love with no other than... CARTER BAIZEN. Chuck is still on the first
line ofcourse but i cant take my eyes off Carter Baizen oh my..

Sebastian Stan,
do you have any malay relatives in Malaysia? Ehe.

can i have you as my upcoming birthday gift??
plisssshh?

Hari ini saya masak masak demi menjamu para cintahati saya datang ke rumah bertandang beraya.

Well basically I planned for a makan makan event specially for my closest friends and the special ones, the best in my life.

Ceh semua kena sujud sekarang tengok penggunaan ayat tu bapak mengharukan.

Since mama told me the official openhouse will only be held the week after I get back to Kedah the heaven haha tipu, so I decided to make a mini open house for my friends.

Semalam, we went out buying stuff to be cooked by the chef,

Ahha the chef is so me, by that, it means, ME, SAYA, AKU MASAK SENDIRI okay.

And thanks to my favorite abangg David Rocco, it was a coincident that I watched his show on the Travel and Living channel earlier yesterday, that’s David Rocco Dolce Vita, and he showed some new simple idea to cook pasta.

Yes kau dengar betul kalini, PASTA lagi. Aku rase sape yang dah selalu dating umah aku memang dah paham yang aku ni majoring in PASTA. Name it, Linguini Vermicelli Ribbon Elbow Spaghetti Fettucine segala semua aku dah master terima kasih kepada Astro Channel masak masak.

SILA SUBSCRIBE SEKARANG.

So we went to Giant memang berbaloi and bought some fresh seafood, since the idea is to cook Marinara Spicy at 1^st place.

Sekali bahan tak cukup and there’s no fresh mussels so tak jadi la nak buat Marinara so I ended up deciding to cook Olio as the replacement.

Dan memandangkan harapan tinggi untuk Reen dan Farakhin pencinta Bolognaise meetballs untuk hadir ke majlis so I bought the ingredients to cook Bolognaise as well.

So lets cut the story of memasak off sebab muka time measak memang bibik habis,

so i refused sekeras kepalanya untuk upload gambar time masak huehuehue.

Mari semua kita lihat insan insan teristimewa yang turut serta cewah.

Kepada Nisa yang tak dapat hadir,

sila menyesal, begitu juga dengan Bob, Akmal, Muaz, dan palingakubengansekali roomate sendiri Farakhin Zahrin seiapkan skrip mohon ampun 14pages okay.

*************************

#1 Kak Azah
VVIP.

#2 The BFF Ammar Lutfi.
TERIMAKASIH SEBAB DATANG BAWAK KEK UNTUK SAMBUT BIRTHDAY AKU YANG....
Lagi sebulan kot.
ehe.

#3 Can u tell me please, whatt mantra u put on my mum that she seems to..
easy to approve you.. my dear??
(o_O)

Oh lupa nak cakap memang tradisi rumah ni sambut birthday awal sebulan.
Kan ammar kan kan?
Haha apepun thanks ammar,
you're the best!

Baby yang menggugat posisi FD.
Haha so cute kan!
Eurasian okay.

kalau gua nak suka gambar ni pun sebab muka dah minyak minyak tanda penat memasak DUA menu berasingan dari pagi.
CEH.

Insan insan paling sayang.
Enough said.

Sekian tamatlah sudah ceritera setakat ni.
Penat nak mamp, tapi takpe puas hati sebab mama suke semua kawan kite pastu mama suke tengok ari dengan bf dia.
Haha tibe tibe je.


Gunait semua.

FD's Photos - 3rd Raya. ♥

The 3rd day of Raya festive.
Breakfast was prepared by alltime fav chef; abah hotstaf.
huehueue.


Later, we went for another convoy trip,
this time to sungai buloh and Rahman Putra.

Snapped by him, and kesukaan abah juga.

(*_*)

Dia kata dia rindu zaman zaman duduk kat Morocco.
eceh eceh kembang la gua apelagi.

The mask of Zorro heh hehe heh.
Bila dah 3 pinggan makan macamni jadi nya.


Members of the organization.





Bila dah nak balik muka masing masing hmphhfffffhhh.
Kau pun same akak jangan nak kata kak diba je muka macam semperit.


Oke. sekian.
Sambung nanti.
Ahlan Wasahlan.
Ececeh.

FD's Photos - 2nd Raya. ♥

The 2nd day.
Kau tahu, baju kebaya tu lepas alter dah jadi...semacam.
Benganggg je tengok.
Rasa macam body builder pun ada hahaha.

Buruk beno muko eden eh.

FD's Photos - 1st Raya. ♥

Sekitar hari pertama perayaan.
Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2009.
FD Anuar dan keluarga.

Beriani Gam, Gulai Kambing dan saudara mara. My Raya tahun ini, soo PERFECT.

Hai semua disaat dan ketika saya menaip ini i am actually lying down on the bed memang totally malas gila berat badan punggung perut dah boroi segala sampai tak larat dah nak bangun.


Today i ate (secret) number of pinggan of Beriani Gam && Gulai Kambing masakan nenek.
And that is why i am lying on the bed unable to move now.
Gila buruk perangai. Kenyang 4 hari 3 malam la kalau begini.


Oh btw last night me and my family went to Puchong, for the last berbuka puasa of 2009, With the beloved atok and annoying cousins hahahaha sumpah annoying tapi seronok gila bila gather i tell you.


Right after berbuka, around 10pm something we get our butt off to Jalan TAR.
Yesss you heard me right.
JALAN TAR YANG HEAVEN HEAVEN SUPER HEAVEN DI MALAM RAYA.
Kau tahu, aku borong sakan. Borong tudung Siti wakaka.
Dahlah tu, tak nak panggil tudung siti, bila pergi shop-to-shop tanya kat abang akak macik tu; Tudung Manohara ada?


haha annoying gila.
Benci benci siti tapi raya nak pakai macam dia isk isk sorok muka sekarang malu ni.
I ended up buying 3pieces of it, HAHA SEKALI TIGA KAU TAHU.


Okay cut that off. Malu aku dah bising bising tak suka sekali pakai pulak, bengong. Raya was superfun, and since this year i am turning 20 y.o, i look at it as something more than just duit raya,
SERIOUSLY. Like this one time syira went soooo excited pergi rumah orang sebelah rumah nenek assuming that we might get a big amount of DUIT RAYA just because rumah dia baru renovate besar besar.


Okay umur dah 20 so tak heran segala itu cewah cewah bangga pula. Raya for me is about family gathering, asking and seeking for forgiveness,
and NOT TO REPEAT THE SAME THING AGAIN, bukan macam time mintak maaf amboi kau menangis sakan but then tak sempat 24 hours dah buat dosa balik.
And Raya for me is about filling the empty stomach too hahah tak empty pun aku fill in stuff in jugak kan.


NENEK I LOVE YIUUU FOR THE MARVELOUS AND TREMENDOUS NASIK BERIANI GAM AND MY FAVOURITE KURMA KAMBING.


Kalau dah dasar tauke kambing memang hidup penuh dengan kambing saje lah. If i am going to get married someday haha apehal gatal tiba tiba cakap pasal wedding ni malunya, that person, lucky guy should i say,
of course HARUS pandai makan daging kambing,
pandai slaughter kambing,
pandai pujuk kambing dan
boleh menerajui bersama sama bisenes kambing ini.
HAHA borang boleh di muat turun sekarang.



Sekian dari editor majalah istimewa keluaran raya,
khas untuk penternak penternak kambing muda berjaya seperti saya hahaha.

SILA CEMBURU.

dan Salam Hari Raya Aidilfitri dari kompeni pencinta kambing sekeluarga.
Except that mama was too occupied with nasik beriani
so she wasnt able to join us in the picture waktu ni haha.

Sekian sahaja kali ini,
esok pagi ada konvoi 6 kereta nak pergi rumah sedara sedara kat
PD dan Seremban.
Jadi nak tidur awal.
Penternak Kambing juga harus kelihatan vogue de vass okay,
haha. Selamat Malam Pertama Hari Raya semua! wth..?

too excited & i dont know what should be the title now haha.

Nothing can beat this feeling of i-cant-stop-smiling looking around and having the beloved people by your side.
And the smell of baked brownies, freshly home-baked Raya cakes and cookies,
heavenly beautifully arranged furniture, my house went well furnished by mamma and mamma alone!


Looking at abah's fat tummy and his loud laughters listening to my fun stories in campus,
having syira giggling all over the stories and making faces,
exchanging fun thoughts of raya and reminiscing the memories of the previous raya,
Ya Allah bestnyieee!!


And not to mention talian internet yang tidak tersekat sekat waakakaka.


Peeps, i am finally home.
Like, finally.
LAMA GILA TAK BALIK OKAY.


Dah la subuh tadi was like the very first time ever i got the chance to bersahur with my parents and the lovely sister, imagine that.
Others can have their time going home sekali dua sepanjang the Ramadhan but i didnt.
I was stuck in the campus not able to go home due to the piling assignments and horrifying numbers of tests/quizzes. Tell me about that.


So now that i am finally home,
last night's nap was awesome, sleeping next to syira have never feel so wonderful haha.
And as i woke up the smells of the cakes catches me.
Lantas nya ke dapur.
Terlalu teruja tak tergambar sebarang kata.


Believe it or not, last nite, the first thing i did right after hugging mamma and tell her how i miss her so (drama),
i went to my room searching for the baju raya.
Kurung modern and the Kebaya modern,
both, looking good. But i feel slightly insecure about the body i am having right now,
thinking of the amount of carbs i took tremendously EVERY DAY,
the never-fail-to-eat cucur keria and all the supersweet kueh i consumed everytime
berbuka.


Damn, i tried both the bajus.


To my surprise,
i was gawking in awe to see the baju went so....longgar.
like, GILA BOSAN BAJU KURUNG MODERN LONGGAR.
WTH?


After all the idea of making kurung modern as the baju raya is to flaunt the body hahahaha celaka gila.
So i walked to mamma's room, merengek rengek nak kecikkan.
U see, this is what i dont like about kurung tempah.
How i wish i really have time to sew my own,
like few that i managed to do so, perfectly, on the previous years.
Malang sekali tahun ini tidak berpeluang.
Thinking of altering the baju,
well, i have no guts to do so since the tailor's cuts are quite complicated,
kalau aku salah alter i might end up not wearing baju baru on the 1st raya nanti.
NONONONO.


Well basically i was lucky Reen was in the same situation as mine,
so we agreed to go to OUR beloved tailr this afternoon pukul 2.30 karang untuk ehem ehem mengetatkan baju raya haha cinabeng gila.


I am so excited about raya.
I might as well go to the fabric store right after the tailor,
to search for Chiffon to make my own scarves for this time's eid!


YES you heard me right,
aku buat tudung sendiri untuk raya tahun ni,
SEBAB BAJU KALER PELIK SANGAT,
so i have no other options,
selain menggunakan skill dan kemahiran menjahit memotong kain dan memilih fabric ecececeh gila bragging.


KEDAI KAIN HERE I COME!


Haha bye bye peeps.
Nak siap pegi Nagoya Textile haha itu je yang terdekat kat sini do.

Selamat prepare for Raya!

XOXO!

I was born not to deal with any electronic gadgets, the expensive one mainly.

Haaaa this is the time that I've been waiting wanting craving dying for bebeh.
Akhirnya aku bertemu komputer ber internet koneksyen.
Akhirnya aku bisa tulis entri baru untuk blog.
Akhirnya akhirnya.


Kau tahu, laptop rosak lagi,
I repeat, ROSAK LAGI.


Damn if you guys are my friends on the FB then you guys might realize how i havent been updating the FB status thru the web lately.
Well basically sekarang i am only able to update my FB status thru the phone internet.
Damn i tell you, i am so not meant to be with any gadgets kau beli lah handphone laptop notebook ipod paling kool sekali pun takkira mahal mana it will eventually ended to kerosakan tak terbela.


Dan tolong TOLONG jangan tanya ape aku buat kat laptop baru beli tak sampai 2bulan tu.
Yang ganti XPS yang aku baling haritu.
Ye, baru.
Man i am so gonna die mesti abah potong duit raya nanti ish.
(x_x)


And this time, it hurt extra much than any other damage as it only affect the wireless connection.
Sudah lah broadband jahannam kini wireless pula tak bisa konek.
I really really feel like cursing tanpa henti right now.
Fortunately it have not come to the end of puasa yet.


Kalau tak ^&$%^*%*.


Well basically we will be leaving UiTM to go back to KL Kampung Langsat tomorrow evening right after berbuka where our so-called-1st class flight will be departing at 7.15pm.


Whoever's idea it is to go and buy ticket balik lambat gila memang berassap gila.
Dahlah the search for the raya handbag and kasut have never been done,
sempat pulak nak bake cake mama dah pesan dia dah beli bahan,
WTH hahaha.


I will be updating with more pictures soon,
and I would like to wish all of you (in advance)
Selamat Menyambut Lebaran Aidilfitri,
minal aidil wal fa'izin!

XOXO

&& yesterday we went for a boat-ride. ♥

Yesterday, Angah and her friends asked

whether I am interested to follow her and the classmates to a boat trip,

since they have to complete their assignment

that require them to do some photo taking with the theme of Nature.

I went all excited,

thinking how i wanted to go out of the 'reban ayam' so much.

So i agreed, and ta-dah!

It was whole lot of fun!

The journey took us around 2hours on-the-boat and an hour of negotiating withthe boat driver whatsoever u call it,

and thanks to my PR skills, (takde kene mengena pun)

i manage to pakse the pakcik to give us the rate that i would say,

very cheap.

RM66 for a trip of 11person.

Well previously they offered us RM15 per head,

and after negotiation session hahaha Kak Farah ni berjaye dapatkan RM6 je sorang.

Semua mesti paham skrg kenapa orang suke bawak aku pegi Padang Besar.

Jadi tukang nego.

Huehihohuhahu.

(n_n)

Shall i stop bragging && moving on to the photos now..?

There are just plenty here,

sbb tak amik lagi dpd SLR Ayu, Ida & lain2.

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The Boat.

Seronok nyie.

Gemuk siyut.

Sumpah cuak kebaya tak muat raya nanti.

Deng betul.

Alooo.. Rambut tak Serena pulak time ni ish kecewa. ;(

Abang nelayan hot.

hehe.

I know I know macam Ponti kan.

Angah bila nak cabut paku ni??

Ponti rock.

After the ride.

Muka semuaaaa penat && teruja nak tengok hasil gambar.

Jacksparrow punye kot.

Sufia!!

Ini captured by Sony E je okay.

Cun kan? ^_^

Ahem.

Sab-Serena.

Ahem ahem.

Non-editing okay. huehue.

SUN-BURN.

*superhate*

Pakcik told us that this is Perkampungan dalam history of Raja Bersiung.

(i was gawking a while after he told us abt it)

They even have the castle lagi here.

Creepy, kan?

Si takut air.

Air yang tenang jangan disangka tak ada crocodile.

alligator biawak ikan pari semua.

Haha MEMANG ADA, ok.

Pakcik yg cakap.

Angah,

BESTFRIEND FOREVER nampak?

tehehehe.

Proses turun dari jeti usang untuk naik boat.

Semua berdebardebar macam nak menikah je hahaha over siut.

Yang paling cuak siap kata nak turun bila boat baru nak gerak.

Sian kan.

Battery SLR dia habis separuh jalan.

Lagi sian.

Okeh dah Sekian.

I started the entry in English and have to finish it in English as well too lah.

Will be uploading more pictures soon..!

*XOXO*

btw ANGAH SUFIA and SAB-SERENA thanks a lot bawak akak pegi jalan.
Terharu sey.
kalau begini bertambah la akak taknak cabut paku, nanti kalau cabut paku dah takdapat bersama korang lagi,
kena masuk hutan dah terbang2.

& when I've said stop annoying me,it means that I really want you to stop.

Of this...

and this...
annoying applications on FB...

Dude, i am so pissed right now.
Pissed, super pissed, annoyed, damn annoyed and ahh sudah aa nak describe nanti habis calar balar rabak blog ni nanti.


Man, to all FBians out there, cant you guys stop playing with those pathetic photo-tagging thang?
Yeaa i know i know sekarang semua pun nak buat, kan,
feels so cool doing it kan,
sebab semua orang pun buat kan,
kan?


But then dude if nak gatal buat juga,
cant you at least not go to the application that says; "go and tag your friends here! they will be notified and inform blabalkauwyfiuwnfyfg".


Damn. Double Damn.
Dont you guys, FBians have any other things to be done?
I mean at least if you've come to an extent nak bosan gile go and search for fun quizzes to be answered ke ape ke, but not that freaking FanCheck StalkerCheck TopFans whatsoever application and later click the tagging application!


You know, there's nothing wrong with feeding your curiosity nak try applications baru on FB or such, but then once is enough, or at least even if you want to do it sangat sangat do not get anyone else involves with that application by tagging people, aite?


Not to mention that the validity and reliability of the faces that applications said to be your stalker,
is not 100% right. I mean, how come i havent been to your page and suddenly i am your number 1 fan? Fishy gila. Like i am so in to you now, semua nya because of that freaking annoying application.


Cmon dude. Lets stop it.
Hentikan penggunaan aplikasi merimaskan yang bernama 'FanCheck'.
Dan report sebagai SPAM.


Harap beri kerjasama kerana seperti yang saya sudah bilang di FB saya,
kalau esok pagi saya check Hotmail inbox, ada lagi muka saya di tag dalam aplikasi bangang anda,
saya tidak akan tunggu tunggu untuk delete terus dari FB friend list.
Tak kira muka kau macam Gun Jun Pyo sekalipun i am so serious.
I have reached my highest level of kesabaran.


Silap besar aa I am in a total hectic super tired mood n then you wanna tag me to ask me play along with all these silly tagging thingy,,
MEMANG SILAP BESAR.

But then kalau nak tag gua gambar macamni
patu tag pulak tang muka
Van Der Woodsen as my name
haha i really really loike, i dont mind at all and
I wont remove the tagging from my photo album haha.

THANKS ARI BERRY!

Eh silap thanks Blair Waldorf huahuaua.

Dah, ingat, jangan coba coba mahu tag FD dalam aplikasi Fancheck lagi!
Adioss.

cause you're so special that's why I'm letting you go. ♥

& so today i lost my Jay Chou again.
ahem, by that it actually means that again, i decided to let him go.
again.
goodbye my Jay Chou.


May both of us manage to find the right one someday.
Thanks for the wonderful experiences && the second shot!
It went well but eventually we're good at being just lu-gua friends.


&& as for you nadia, i thank you the most for letting me think about this again & again.
& i think you might be right about me and my state of busy-ness with my own life,
how can i even have an extra responsibility to be taken care of?
Plus, its not like it is compulsory to have ONE now.


At some times, i admit that i might be missing those tiny pieces of the wonderful feelings.
And at some times i'm pretty sure i'll have to start stopping myself from hoping once again.
But naddy, u made me think wiser, and deeper about this thangg,
and thus, i've decided to carry on with just what i have for now,
and not to care too much about it, like i used to.


So now, its true,
Every happy moments will somehow come to an end.
I am not cheering to be back on track, but i am cheering to see him happier outside my cage.


Happy Single, everyone! (everyone that are single as well, obviously!)

Bye bye JayChou ♥
I will surely miss you.
I know I'll do.

This shall stop me from
downloading, searching or listening to any Jay Chou's song anymore from now on.
Sedih do.

oh Blair makes Good Girls Go Bad..!

Despite her nasty and bitchy scenes on the GG,
Leighton Meester seems to make herself good at things.

And her 'things' isnt just dramas and plays,
but baby, believe it or not,
she can even sing..!

Here;
click this IMMEDIATELY.
Its my official anthem now:

Blair can SING!

(how i really wish i can upload the whole video here,
unfortunately I'm preparing myself for upcoming tests so jadi malas nak upload.)
Haha silly excuse!

Hell yeah, now it feels like I should try my luck singing and acting. (yeah rite)
Haha Blair i wonder how many other girls have you influenced.
I'm already one of them, for sure.

Come on peeps, lets make good girls go bad!
Just one night couldnt be so wrong,
You make me wanna lose control~
Lalala~

(>.<)

The Gunners should have shot down the devils away...

Even for the shocking own goal,
I will never turn away from you.

You should've won just now!

Love Gunners hidup mati.





&& this shall make me hate Man U more.
Shusssh.

and you called yourself an educator...

I think it is time for me to burst out now.
I don't think I can take it any-more.
And not just me, infact the whole class were feeling the same too.


This event shows how power and authority can change someone so drastically.
How power can leads to perfections in all things and how demanding one can be. Once the person hold the power itself.


I wanted to be an educator for one clear reason.
And that one clear rigid reason is to contribute to the society, producing a guaranteed-to-be-productive generation in future, to ensure our country will not fall to the other's easily.
What exactly i want is the satisfaction of teaching and delivering the informations i know, what i've learnt beofre them, and to channel it through educational way.
Easy. Simple, why must make it soo complicated?
At the end of the day, it is the vision that you'll want to fulfill so much after all.
Not to gain individual benefits.


I dont feel any hatred or such toward this one person.
He appeared as one huge name in our life, he taught me on my 1st semester and again, this semester,
but he was a total different person this time. Like, totally different, to the extend that none of us can take it anymore. Like i said at 1st.


I've been working with him as the president of his club, and I have been very close to him previously too.
I do understand the gap and boundaries between a lecturer and students. But i also do understand that at some points you cant just treat the superiors or anyone below your position, in this case us as the students, obviously, like......rubbish..?


Yes we still can take it if u said that perfection is your thing,
you cant see things undone perfectly and blablabla.
But we just cant take it when the things that you asked for, are totally contradicted than what you've asked before.
Its like, monday you want this, Selasa nak lain, Rabu dah tukar ikut what you said YOU WANT then you said its wrong, again??
Whats that??


Setiap hari hari yang kami terpaksa berdepan dengan wajah ini,
kami sekelas cukup depressed. Satu subject yang sepatutnya jadi sangat seronok, dan role-play sepatutnya jadi sangat humorous selain menyampaikan mesej dengan cara yang interesting, SEMUAnya jadi sangat membosankan.
Keras, Kaku, buat kami semua lebih senang MEMBISU dan MEMBATU.


If one day i am lucky enough to achieve my dream to be an educator,
tak kira lah sekadar high school, private school, lecturer or what form of educator sekalipun,
I SWEAR I WILL NOT TREAT MY STUDENTS LIKE THIS.


I SWEAR.
to myself and to the society.


Teaching is not about getting people doing WHAT YOU WANT.
Simple, isnt it?
A good educator should not make the students feel so bad about themselves.
A good educator should bring out the best in their students.


For some reasons,
this particular person who called himself as an educator
should consider again the student's opinion.
After all, life is not just all about you.
We live under Symbiosis.


Come on, lets practice give and take.
Shall we..?

Little Miss Sunshine's puasa.

Attention; This was supposed to be posted on the 24th of August.

Unfortunately, the server breaks down ke hape tah so whatever i still want to post it jugak bahahahh.

And so it’s my 3rd day of Ramadhan.
And so it’s amazing that the rain hasn’t stop since the 1st Ramadhan.
And the whether is freaking annoying.
And now it feels like there’s no tomorrow.
Okay mengarut punye intro.

Well basically today is not really a good day for me,
Hujan tak henti semenjak puasa pertama, sejuk teramat sangat dan terkadang rasa macam nak pasang pendiang dekat dalam bilik hahaha over.

I am going to be extremely tired,

Not to mention stressed out with all upcoming tests and quizzes,
&& not to forget the possibilities that our English Carnival will still have to run no matter what.
(I’ve had a phone call from the HEP telling me this)
And superduper numbers of assignments,
The scary deadline and scary lecturers as well.
Tell me about it..

So here’s the thing,
Tomorrow morning I’ll be having a quiz for Statistics,
On Wednesday evening I’ll be having debate training,
On Thursday afternoon I’ll be having Accounting II test,
On Friday morning I’ll be having Statistics test,
Moving on to the 1st of September I’ll be sitting for my Office Management test,
And on the 3rd September there will be Human Resources test.

And the list goes on,
But the most scary part will be the Law test.
MATI AKU. Scary gila okay.
Law is so not into me. Eh I mean I am not meant to study Law.
Eh ape ape jela aku tertekan gila sebenarnya ni.

And fussy lecturers are killing me softly now.
Its like, kau dah berusaha gila gaban nak buat sehabis baik untuk memenuhi semua yang dia mintak but it ended up dia sikit pun tak hargai malah dia mintak buat baru, in the way yang apa dia mintak kali ni contradicted gila dengan yang dia mintak asal dahulu.
Eventhough it is a teamwork-based-assignments, I felt terribly upset because it was me the one that work so hard on it days and nights.
Nak nangis pun tak guna,
Terima jelah. Tak semua lecturer macam ni..

So btw 1st puasa was fun,
I manage to experience tarawikh with Ari berry and I was excited to see sooo many of the students went there to perform tarawikh too. Ramai, tak tipu. Its amazing that they have the spirit to come despite all assignments and workloads waiting untuk disiapkan.

The wonderful glow of Pusat Islam's Dome. hehe.

2nd day of fasting, I went out with Ari, this time it was totally unplanned,
All the car-thingy, shopping for foods, and berbuka di Hotmas.
Semua unplanned, tapi kira ok la kitorang berdua pulun habis,
Abang kat Hotmas tu pun terkedu tengok dua orang badan stock mini-mini tapi makan baik punya.

Ari you did a good job yesterday && the pekassam, OMG S-U-P-E-R LOVE okay!
When we went to the bazaar for food-hunting,
Betapa bertuah nya bila unplanned, then terjumpa pakcik yang jual home-made pekassam.
We both went like, jakun sekejap.
Pekassam sangat addictive ok aku boleh makan macam tu je, without anything. Haha believe it or not.

Ari's ecstatic face. Look at the TomYam bowl!

&& me hehe cantik tudung kan kan kan hwahwahwa.

And as for my 3rd puasa, today,
My BEL lecturer totally turned my day off.
And with that, I no longer feel the need to write any longer.
Aku tertekan kerana satu roleplay yang sepatutnya is all about FUN,
Tapi dah jadi macam roleplay nak main kat Philharmonic Stage KLCC.
Dang. Nasib baik bulan puasa,
Bersabar jela.

So brothers and sisters,
How’s your puasa going so far..?

As to end up the entry of the 3rd day of puasa,

i give you this special edition photo of me looking like artis recording Nasyid.

Lihatlah cahaya keimanan yang memancar sinar di wajah ku sempena Ramadhan yang penuh keberkatan ini hehehe.

Sekian,
Goodluck untuk puasa penuh!
Assalamualaikum semua!

and here comes the month where there'll be no demons and devils && arrogant faces, i hope.

And here we go again,
Back to where we were before.

Okay that is not any lines taken from any song lyrics.

Assalamualaikum all.
So basically we're gonna be having our fasting month samada esok atau lusa.
Excited? I know. Tapi jangan tipu lah perasaan teruk dan hampa bila puasa pertama tak ada dengan mama dan abah kat KL, not to mention Syira yang akan keseorangan sebab Akak Wawa sah sah la sibuk berpuasa di rumah sendiri.

I miss KL.

I miss mama dan abah dan syira.

Dan segala saiz kuali di rumah. Dan berebut memasak untuk sahur dengan abah.
Dan bodek abah supaya dia masak nasik goreng magical dia untuk sahur.
Dan malas malas nak bangun serta badan lemah longlai di rumah.

Puasa. apalah ertinya tanpa mama dan abah disisi.
(x_x)

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Menjelang puasa, few things reminded me so much about my last year's Ramadhan, and few things that truly excites me when it comes to Ramadhan;

1. The equality of the state of weakness of everyone in the class. Semua pun lembik semua pun tak banyak cakap semua pun ada potensi tidur dalam kelas bersama sama maka terhasil lah tidur jemaah. (*_*)

2. I love it when they ended the classes earlier than usual. Like, dulu dulu kelas banyak sampai 6pm so what happened was ramai lecturer baik hati cut it off jadi everyone can go back by 5pm and if there's any night class, they even let us come a little bit more late than usual. See, how nice the lecturers were. Ceh ceh bodek.

3. Perebutan nasi ayam hot di bazaar. Yes yes ingat lagi Mak Ngah tauke foodcourt two semester ago? Haha i bet seniors do, and as for the juniors tak sempat merasa, kinda rugi. Nasik ayam MakNgah was such a hit (because its always limited / per day) sampai ada yang sanggup race from 3rd floor Mahsuri F2 to the bazaar without changing dengan pakai baju kelawar kain batik dan seluar tidur selamba je pergi bazaar asalkan dapat beli nasik ayam untuk berbuka. Haha.

4. The need of extra colors on the face. Bahahah, disebabkan fasting month and everyone pun lemah longlai so u'll see semua orang muka pucat lesi therefore this is the time when we need blusher in a huge amount, Emellia. hehe.

5. Ujian kesabaran. They always said that bulan puasa tak bisa marah marah karena nanti puasa nya batal. And because of that semua pun tunggu bukak puasa baru boleh marah puas puas hhaaha.

6. Pertandingan perut siapa terhebat. Ini toksah cakap banyak. I will always remain the winner menang tanpa bertanding no doubt. Kuih semua warna ada sebut je semua aku telan.

7. Good foods good people. GUARANTEED. unless kau jumpa orang yang truly lapar sgt sampai bila senyum kat dia she'll roll her eyes back to you instead of smiling kan, then bagi pengecualian kat dia la. Kesian dia lapar gila.

8. The ability of ANYONE YANG DAH MAKAN 4 PINGGAN of foods for break-fasting untuk terus pergi solat tarawikh right after berbuka, aku kagum benar.

9. Sistem makan yang bagus, ramai yang amalkan macam 2 round 3 round makan. So its like kononnya tak membazir beli banyak makanan pun sbb after all nanti lepas tarawikh ada 2nd round and before tidur sekali lagi ada 3rd round.
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At the end of the day kau punya baju raya kena hantar tailor semula untuk alter kerana badan makin ehem ehem KEMBANGG.

10. Bertukar tukar juadah dengan jiran haha termausk jiran Chinese and Indian sebalah kiri kanan rumah they even tried to fast too, so sweet kan!

11. Melihat gelagat uncle-uncle atau abah abah atau boyfriend yang lepaskan gian smoking dulu as soon as azan berkumandang, dasyat gile.
Sampai macam tu sekali.

12. Mengadap Jejak Rasul di siaran TV3 sebab nak cover lapar runggu setengah jam lagi berbuka. Pastu iklan paling famous sudah tentu lah iklan Soya Cincau hehe.

13. Lagu lagu background untuk pngumuman waktu berbuka puasa menjadi sangat menjengkelkan memandangkan semua pun dah lapar sangat kenapa mesti ada lagu lagu bernada klasik untuk menambah kelaparan.?

14. Doa sebelum berbuka puasa yang dibacakan oleh Upin dan Ipin sebelum azan Maghrib RTM memang berjaya membuat anak anak sedara kecik menghafal dengan baik sekali.

15. Tahukah anda doa orang yang berpuasa sebelum dia berniat buka puasa adalah dimakbulkan sekiranya selama sepanjang bulan puasa itu dia ulangi setiap hari? JAdi sebelum berbuka dan menyumbat perut dengan makanan apakata mintak apa yang dihajatkan, like right before berniat buka puasa. Jangan lupa, macam doa doa biasa, mulakan 3 kali selawat ke atas Nabi dan akhiri 3 kali juga yang sama. Insya Allah.

16. Jikalau berpuasa di rumah, selalunya akan timbul kekecohan syira dan akak tak mahu cuci pinggan yang berlambak bila dah selesai berbuka. Seperti biasa aku lah mangsa nya.

17. Kalau berbuka ramai ramai di kampung Puchong pula, tak payah nak cabut undi memang aku lagi lah mangsa nya.

18. Kalau di belah kampung Setapak iaitu rumah nenek sebelah lorong pula selalunya semua buat buat tak tahu dapur kat mana gara gara masalah dishes melambak ni juga. But this time i like the very la, aku selalu selamat tak payah bertugas di dapur hahahahahaaaaa.

19. Kadang kadang bila tak boleh puasa selalu jadi mangsa kena rasa semua benda yang orang tengah masak. Bythetime nak berbuka kau dah kenyang terbongkang macam ular sawa.

20. Bila bulan puasa semua orang pun nak komplen kata aku buat air manis sangat selalunya, apahal tah.

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So bytheway since we already have the newly-launched Pusat Islam in UiTM Kedah, cantik besar dan very spacious u know,
We are truly excited to go for the tarawikh, especially the morekh part makan makan hahaha buruk gila perangai kau. And semoga kami semua rajin mengunjungi Pusat Islam untuk malam malam tarawikh itu.

This coming puasa makes me think of one thing.
Changes. Should it be a month of changes..?
Like, bulan ini kau benar benar berubah, kau beri yang sehabis baik dan perform secemerlang mungkin, simply because it is Ramadhan.
But then, sampai bila? akan kekal kah perubahan itu lepas fasting month nanti?

I promised myself one big thing somehow,
That is, to control my anger, temper and my emotion from straying to the bad part.
And to at least only think of nice things, good things about others and how wonderful everyone are. And to kill off the prejudice soul i have in me.

I have to stop. Stop looking at things negatively.
And if i really want to change, i shall start now.
This is the opportunity, to start together in such a meaningful celebration.
Of the month of Ramadhan.

Till then,
Happy Fasting everyone.
May our days blessed by the Almighty and for us to always filled with sense of thankfulness no matter what we have now.

p/s- They said that during the fasting month all the devils and demons were to be locked in Hell. Is that for real?

of the photoshoot...

Hai there hello.
Remember few days back, there was this one time when i mentioned about having this photoshoot thingy to help my Graphic juniors to be their model for their project?


Well basically i kind of accept their offer and tell my self,
'why not, give it a try'..
Plus, i have been doing all these behind the scene thingy ever since i experienced studying fashion one time before,
so i wonder,
'selalu aku yang makeup org, blow rambut org, setting for lighting semua, and now..
dah ada orang ajak, ape salahnya, kan?


Well basically i wanted to upload all the photos taken on that photoshoot tapi banyak sgt n ive come out with a solution yang mana Farah compile the pictures dan jadikan dalam bentuk collage,
so boleh sekali banyak upload.
hehehe.


Oh btw, i am just doing all these for fun,
and 4the sake of helping my juniors..
But i had fun!
Thanks to the crew, special thanks to Ari my PA hahaha, Emi the makeup artist, Angah tukang buat rambut, and of course the cutie pie photographer, Olan.


Now i am not posting all these to be judged by anyone ok?
Just have fun looking at it,
because the real feeling when we work during this photoshoot was seriously fun.

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This is my photographer.
The man behind all the pretty pictures.
And so aku yang tak lawa pun nampak lain semacam thanks to him.

Next, Ari. Personal assistant merangkap teman sepermodelan untuk budak2 Graphic ni.
Next week is gonna be her turn.
And yesssss dia paksa aku teman dia pulakk.

Mastermind yang menutupi segala bekas2 kawah kat muka FD malam tu.
Hahaha as u all know i kan the very the acne cleanser punya regular customer,
so i was like, mati la aku kawin nanti make up sure tak lawa.
But malam tu magic hand of Emillia made me realized that
after all muka aku takle teruk mana,
emi manage to make all the scars GONE.

and and abbas sampai tak kenal aku,
gile keji.

Well thanks again Emi,
now moving on to emi's lessbo partner.
Angah or Ain.
She is the person who in charge of my hair.
Tak cukup curl, dia tambah.
And yes she was the one who offered me 1st to help with this project.

Thanks angah.

And as for this picture,
i actually have suddenly lost my voice since the photog is so cute,
unfortunately he is so junior,
and i am so not into junior,
and i am so screwed up if my bf's reading this.

(x_x)

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And the results...

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Ohh bytheway,
these two are my all time favorite.
Thanks Olan, Dude and some other photog,
i havent seen these side of me before,
but u guys have miraculously bring out the different part in me.
On that night.

;)

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And so thats it for now.
If there's any more to be updated on these thingy,
i will upload more and update
with the stories as well.....

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Oh btw diri ini sangatlah berharap dan terhingin gila snap satu dua pose macam ni;
macam kakak i yang gorgeous sorang ni ha.
hehe.

I love u Audrey Hepburn. always..!!

she is super perfect kan.
She will always be my fashion icon..
And so kalau orang kata my expressions
macam 80's i really really dont mind because it actually flatters me more..!


Thanks..! ;)

Ucapan Istimewa Hari Ulangtahun Untuk Orang Tu.

Safena Isfazura..

I would like to wish you
A Happy 20th Birthday,
and hope that your coming days will be filled
with laughter and more happiness,
and for you to be successful in everything that you do.

Through out these years,
you've been a good friend,
a good pacifier and baby sitter to me and akhin.
And we would like to thank you so sangat
because of that..

Despite all the things people said,
you have never really care about it,
and the way you carried yourself and you show your wisdom
on how you handle people around you,
are simply the best quality we can look in you.

You have been a good daughter,
a good muslim,
a good student,
a good sister to all our adik adik in Sekolah Kampung Pasir,
and a good exco protocol to DIPAC,
and bla bla bla..
You are really good that you can do a lot of different things at one time,
and not even screwing anything up..


You are amazing,
beautiful inside, and outside...


Safena Isfazura anak uncle Ishak..
We love you (me and farakhin).
Have super fun on your 20th birthday!
Dua dekad dah kau hidup woi.

You are our one and only minah tertelan microphone
cakap handphone satu blok Mahsuri dengar.

I hope you like the gifts we've bought for you.
*kisses*!!!

Sincerely,
Diba dan Akhin. Lovelove.

So much love, so little time. So many tasks, so little energy. Apenii?

1. I have no more time to waste now.


2. I have been very depressed with studies and classes lately.


3. I have just got to realized that my debater friends misses me too huahuahua teharu gile.


4. I sometimes have to neglect few of my important responsibilities in order to settle the others.


5. I learned that we are not superhuman n no one can be One.


6. But the weird part is that even though i have been moving and running here and there a lot
lately, the perut part still ada spare tyre. bongek aaa mcmana nak pakai kebaya raya nanti weh.


7. I also notice that my complexion is getting err err darker..? Ceyy Merbok sunshine is killing me mannn...


8. Knowing that i've put my status in FB as in an open relationship with Harizah Hanim, a lot of girls now think that i am actually a lesbo or bi-sexual. Haduyaiii its just a joke frm me n Ari laaa!


9. I am waiting for PosLaju addressed with my name to petisurat kolej Mahsuri hehehe.


10. I want a new handbag. apa?? Lagi?? Oh its a therapy btw.


11. I miss Nisa Boroyy but she have been too bizi with her rumah sewa sampai tak heran kat aku dalam UiTM lagi. Benci.


12. I easily get annoyed dengan noises lately.


13. I am very determine to make my English Carnival a big hit despite all the previous cancellations and stupid cuti mengejut yang terjadi minggu lalu.


14. Mama sekarang dah malas nak call sebab tiapkali call aku jawab mama kak diba tengah miting.


15. Esok malam i am going to be helping my Graphic juniors to pinjamkan rambut dorang nak buat tangkap gambar hape tah. Rambut, rambut.. ahaiiii..


16. My ELC will be on the 13th to the 15th August. Oh akhirnya.


17. Hujung minggu ada seport dey. Bertambah hitam lah aku nampaknye.


18. I am now officially a good adviser for those who have difficulties on letting go their beloved
exes and wanting me to motivate them to keep trying. Go, clients. go! U can do it! Ceyy.


19. My term BFF is not the typical bestfren forevah when it comes to the guy friends, but it is actually Best-Flirt-Friend kuang kuang kuang.


20. And now i always feel like time goes by really really fast so fast so furious because sekejap je dah nak ada test itu ini dan aduyai tension bodo.


21. I over-excited-ly volunteered to be the 1st presenter for my 1st BEL assessment because it is too scary and it makes my heart stops beating at some times, and so i volunteered dupaya cepat settle keje aku and dangggg i did the presentation gracefully waakakkakaka nasib la korang yang tak lepas present lagi.


22. Safena's besday is getting near and i am planning not to plan anything for her. (evil laughs sambil korek hidung)


23. And even worst i am planning to act like Safena actually have no besday. Wakakaka kesiann.


24. My boy-friends of part 4 have been thrown out of the college and demanded to stayed at the Taman Universiti kejadah ape tah and there are no more budak budak lelaki hensem part 4 dan 5 dan 6 di dalam kampus ini waaaa sedeyyy.


25. I am now working on HR assignment where we have to find a corporate company and buat soal siasat to gain infos abt the company background blah blah blah apasal aku rasa macam dah stadi Master ni.


26. I have started to feel seronok doing marketing stuffs for organizations and companies as we were all exposed to the company-styled of work and blah blah malas nak elaborate. I just love the idea of promoting services and convincing clients to use our services provided and the products as well.


27. Okay i love my subjects this semester so far tapi for some reasons, OM is effing bossannnn. I will always bring a comfortable cardigan to OM class to be used as the blanket sebab i know i will eventually fall asleep after the 2nd half of the class. Nasib ar.


28. I hate the PakGad more because few days back aku pakai come come dia suruh balik and change sebab dia kata 3/4 sleeves tak bley pakai, hotak dia.


29. Why eh Kedah is so hot sekarang? Tapi harini hujan lebat. Ok pelik.


30. I was totally flattered today sebab the twin sisters Pipi and Yaya added me up kat Facebook macam spuluh tahun tak jumpa and rambut pipi dah panjang Yaya look so pretty and they both no longer looked the same and i just miss them so much and masing masing rindu nasik lemak Pengkalan Iman+pondok blok bawah Masria. Ohh nostalgia gile. Tunggu balik KL kite jumpa ye twins.


31. I am very relieved and super thankful to Allah swt because finally our kambing business have manage to get back on the right track and we have just brought in more numbers of newbies to the kandang. Oyeahh.


32. Lastly for now, i really really rindu all my kambing kambing ternakan and also susu kambing yang sedap bile letak kat freezer setengah jam pastu shake shake macam ice blended wakakakaka.


Okay i shall now proceed with my Office Management tutorial questions.
Satu soalan lagi Diba kau jangan nak tido.
Night.

Petanda petanda bahawa anda sudah tidak lagi sendiri.

Petanda petanda bahawa anda tidak lagi sendiri.

Mudah je ni. Sambil menaip sebelah tangan, sebelah lagi nak cari rambut gatal di kepala roommate dua orang pun boleh.

Baiklah rerakan pergerakan girl guides se-wangsa melawati semua,
antara petanda petanda ketara bahawa anda tak lagi sendiri adalah:


1. Anda mulai tak terasa lapar pun bila bangun tengahari tapi masih takmakan pagi walau jam dah 2petang. Anda juga seakan akan tak selera nak makan walaupun mama masak ikan bakar beserta air assam faveret anda. Adik anda melintas dengan satu bucket Baskin Robbins pun anda buat muka kelat je lepastu bau jiran sebelah bakar brownies dalam ketuhar menusuk hidung, anda buat muka mati nafsu.
Sah, tidak lagi sendiri.


2. Anda tak mahu ikut kawan kawan keluar. Kawan kawan ajak pun anda rasa takpelah nak duduk rumah je. Hal ini kerana anda tidak lagi sendiri. Padahal semua kawan kawan pergi bermain bowling menonton wayang dan bersuka ria di bandaraya Kuala Lumpur yang jarang jarang anda jejak unless ada jemputan ikut mama abah pegi kenduri kahwin dekat hotel tengah bandar. Anda asyik dan leka melayan perkara tersebut yang buat anda tidak lagi sendiri. Lantas anda tak lagi heran dengan bandaraya Kuala Lumpur atau Kampung Langsat.


3. Anda jadi tak heran akan rancangan rancangan televisyen kesukaan seperti KBS World dan segala drama mahupun Golden Star Bell Challenge, mahupun Jamie Oliver at home yang selama ini anda pujai. Bila anda tidak lagi sendiri, semua rancangan yang anda satu masa dulu tak boleh missed, anda sudah jadi tak heran, takpela YouTube kan ada so boleh tengok nanti. Anda lebih pentingkan perkara yang buat anda tak lagi sendiri itu.


4. Anda malas sekali nak tolong abah dan mama. Malah, nenek telefon untuk memberi makanan yang dia dah masak sedap2 pun anda malas nak pergi lorong sebelah untuk ambil, padahal rumah nye si nenek sebelah lorong je jalan kaki 5minit dah ketuk pintu. Dasar tidak lagi sendiri betul la. Malahan pabila abah mengajak untuk menonton eh menjenguk melawat kambing kambing peliharaan yang dengar cerita ada da mati ada bertambah baby lagi semuaaaaa nyaaaa anda tak nak pergi lihat. Anda memang jelas terlalu terikat dengan perkara yang membuatkan anda tidak lagi sendiri itu. Macamtu sekali, Ish.


5. Apabila anda menerima panggilan panggilan telefon yang anda malas hendak jawab, anda akan mencampakkan telefon di atas tilam, lantas menekup pula dengan bantal sehingga bunyi nya ringtone yang merupakan lagu SuperMassive Black Hole dendangan Muse akan berhenti sendiri.
Tatkala itu anda segera mendapatkan semula perkara yang membuat anda tidak lagi sendiri tadi. Telefon anda, anda tak peduli.


6. Bangun tengahari seakan akan menjadi satu lumrah dalam hidup anda bila anda tidak lagi sendiri. Hal ini kerana anda telah mencurahkan sepenuh kasih sayang perhatian yang tidak berbelah bahagi kepada perkara yang membuatkan anda tidak lagi sendiri itu pada malam sebelumnya. Maka dengan sebab itulah anda menjadi lena terbuai mimpi sehingga bangun dinihari. Semuanya gara gara perkara yang buat anda tak lagi sendiri.


7. Rambut anda yang sudahla serupa langsuyar eh langsuir ke kuntil-anak ke semua tu, anda tak sikat langsung pun. Anda bajet sudah shempu pagi pagi anda lumur sama serum setepek-dua lepastu anda tak sikat sampai la shempu lagi esok pagi. Anda mungkin bajet bed-hair tapi sebenarnye Na’uzubillah patutla jiran belakang terus tutup semua pintu dan tingkap bila nampak anda keluar nak angkat kain di jemuran. Anda sedar semua ini? Tidakkk, kerana dengan ada nya perkara yang buat anda tak lagi sendiri, anda terus tak peduli semua ini.
Bajet Serena Van Der Woodsen la engkau sekarang.


8. Anda menjadi begitu perfectionist dan cuba sedaya upaya untuk memuaskan hati apabila ia nya berkaitan dengan perkara yang membuatkan anda tak lagi sendiri itu. Anda sanggup tak mandi semuanya kerana perkara yang membuatkan anda tak lagi sendiri tersebut. Begitu keronik sekali, anda sampai tak sanggup tengok cermin menghadap wajah sendiri. Semua nya kerana perkara tu malas aku nak taip panjang lebar lagi.


Dan atas semua petanda petanda diberi di atas, adalah dengan ini saya pakar perangsang anda eh silap lain pulak yang teransang karang, pembetulan sayalah pakar pentafsir kehidupan yang penuh ilusi ini, ingin mendedahkan apakah sebenarnya dia perkara yang membuatkan anda tidak lagi sendiri.


Iaitu….cepat semua rasa suspen.

Iaitu kehadiran Assignments yang melambak.


Bilamana kehadiran assignment terlalu melimpah ruah mencurah curah ke ladang gandum semuaaaa tu maka anda akan mengalami semua stage keronik seperti yang dinyatakan diatas lantas menghasilkan petanda petanda yang anda sudah tidak lagi sendiri / anda tidak lagi sendiri / ah apa apa je yswd.


Betul apa..kan?


Sekian. Sila bengang. Hahah semua pikir benda lain kan kan kan.
Sape suruh. (n_n)

Waspada lah dengan lelaki lelaki bijak camouflage.

Hari ini saya belajar untuk bertambah tak percaya lelaki.

Hal ini kerana:

1. Kadangkala mereka sangat bijak berdrama bercerita tentang sengsara dan merana nya diri mereka tidak cukup disayangi dan sebagainya padahal itu semua bohong belaka. Mereka selalu dapat hugs dan kiss dari gf mereka belakang pengetahuan kita.

2. Kecenderungan mereka untuk mengubah-ubah kedudukan status perhubungan adalah amat mengelirukan terutama sekali di facebook. Hal ini amat mengecewakan kerana kadangkala kita mati mati tertipu oleh statusnya. ahh geram sekali rasanya, Sabar FD sabarrrr.

3. Mereka (segelintir) menabur gula selalu. Maksudnya mereka bijak bermain gula atau dalam bahasa direct mereka sweet talker. Mudah sekali mengeluarkan kata kata manis bermadah namun semuanya hanyalah dusta.

4. Mereka selaluuuu call tengah tengah malam macam konon nya rindukan kita dan teringat kita padahal mereka ada baki supersavers yang mereka guna setengah jam sebelum tu buat kekasih satu lagi.

5. Ada segelintir yang susah nak menolak atau katakan tidak kepada CURANG. Mereka ada tendency untuk melayan mana mana wanita comel yang hadir dalam senarai Facebook mereka mahupun bertemu dimana mana tournament debat/debate, seolah olah la mereka ni tak ada gf.
Menyampah nya!

6. Mereka selalu memberi alasann untuk berjumpa kita padahal kita ni hanya lah persinggahan semata mata. Sebab tu mereka selalu tak kesah jumpa atau tak jumpa. Mereka kan dah ada gf tetap. Tak jumpa kita pun tak apa. Gf tetap kan ada. cisss...

7. Mereka selalu mengelak nak bercakap tentang Gf mereka pabila kita bertanya. Kadang kadang mereka kata tak suka bercakap atau berfikir akan gf mereka dan at that moment they will say; 'no i dont want to think of her i just want to think of you' dan sebagainya cehh bajet romantis lah sekarang, sekali kau bukak FB dia tengok tengok orang itu lah yang di sayang-sayang kan di Wall post nya.

8. Lelaki selalu tamak. Semua pun dia nak. Dah ada gf tetap tapi nak tambah lagi. Dah dapat birthday surprise yang gilang gemilang dari gf yang terbaik tapi masih mencari cari ganti. Dah dapat semuaaaaaa tapi claim yang tak cukup disayangi ape kah semua ni?????

Kesimpulan yang mudah dapat dibuat ialah jangan lah layan lelaki kalau jumpa di mana mana majlis pendek seperti Debat VC Cup mahupun Arau Open mahupun majlis majlis lain seperti kenduri jenazah dan sebagainya.

Lelaki sekarang bijak camouflage.

Takut aku.


(TAMBAHAN edited after mendengar responds yang BANYAK di Facebook dan comments) :
PERHATIAN : Bila aku menulis ini sedikitpun aku tidak bersikap stereotype kepada kaum lelaki. Malah aku tahu perempuan juga ada begini. Ramai, aku tahu. Jadi abanggg abanggg semua toksah dok emo emo kat sini yeaaaa kalau tak suka tak bley terima apakutulis ni buat tak endah saja harap mengerti plis.